Eleven Years

CHAPTER 22

11th STREET MAILBOX
12 YEARS AGO



Dear Rosie,


Baby, what was that?

The second you called me by my name and then after that ... you stared at me as if I was just a stranger. What is happening to you?

I'm really scared. I can't go back to New York like this, leaving you with so much confusion in yourself. I can't go on like this.

For the first time in two years, our eyes met. It was so precious. But the way you looked at me was bizarre, I am Jared! your man and forever yours.

Your aunt Morgan told me everything, about the death of your mother and murder case of your father. I wish I was there, holding your hands and keeping you warm when those days went so much terrible. I can't imagine to lose my mom, and I know that what you've been through is unimaginable.

Looking through your eyes, they were so empty. I can't get it out of my head, you're so lonely. You're not the Rosie that I used to know, but I'm still here and I don't want to give up for 'us'. You're the only one that I wanted to marry with ... soon.

As I went back home, I knew the whole family was staring at me but I didn't care. I didn't say any words. Right now, it feels so uncertain that we have to face this. I just want a good life with you, fun times with you, incredible nights with you but...why does it feel like I have to die just to achieve that?

I bet you're sleeping now in your bedroom and I hope that all the sweetest dreams may come in to your wonderful mind. I hope I will be part of your dreams. I ALWAYS pray at night for you and for 'us', hoping everything between us will stay positive and constant in happiness.

Don't you ever cry in your front porch again or else I will take you with me back to New York. Please be careful every day Rosie.

You're too colorful to live in black and white.

And I'm too mad right now to have you in my arms tonight ...

Think of our happy moments together, our lovely nights as one and ME ... think of me baby. Please.

Please.

Think of me.


'I will do everything to make you smile, laugh and worth it. Remember that Rosie. Bye for now.'



Love,

Jared