Into oblivion

Wish

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Folding my jacket into my hands i cant help but remember how I got it.

Me and Donte got into a bit of a fight with some idiots at this bar. There were these four guys that started hitting on me and when I said no lets just say they looked like I was speaking a foreign language. Long story short Donte wasn't happy about the fact they got touchy and beat them to near death, before we ran away, I spotted this jacket and for some reason thought I needed to take it with me. Funny thing is I haven't actually worn it once since that day.

"So, is that all?" Max stumbles in with his crutches on either side of his arms.

"Yeah, and thanks for helping by the way" I smile pulling out a chair for him to take a seat on. He shouldn't even be standing but he insisted on helping me unpack some of my stuff into my room.

"I owe you my life Mia, I don't think folding some clothes needs a thank you"

"Max, we've been over this"

"Mia-"

"Max you don't owe me anything, I'm just glad you're alive"

He smiles at me understandingly but I know dam well he's still hanging onto this whole 'I owe you everything' bullshit. I'm not a hero. I don't pretend to be, and if anyone thinks otherwise then I feel sorry for them.

"Is it okay if I play some music?" he asks, pulling out his phone at the same time.

"Yeah I still have a shit ton to do so play away"

Start song now 🎧 ^^^

As the song starts I realise he's connected to my speakers making the song blast through the whole floor. I laugh as this idiot gets up and starts singing "I fell in love with shawty when I seen her on the dance floor" he smiles walking towards me.

"No" I warn moving back but he catches me pulling me out to the middle of the room.

The beat drops and he circles around me singing each and every lyrics pretending as if he's at a concert.

"You're an actual idiot you know that right?" taking my hand in his he spins me around.

"Come on I know you want to join" he smirks shooting up his eyebrows up and down still dancing, but I just shake my head laughing my ass off "come on just sing one line and I'll leave you alone"

I take a second to think about it because in all honestly I could just turn the song off. I could turn it off and continue weeping about all the shit that is going wrong in the my life but that's just long. Too long.

"There's so many ways to love you Baby, I can break you down" I join in and his smile shoots to the roof.

"YES LOUDER!" he yells grabbing a hair brush off my desk throwing it to me, I take it joining in.

"Feel so hot for honey out of all the girls up in the club" he sings pointing to me.

"This one's got me whipped just off of one look, yep, I fell in love" I sing back into my imaginary mic.

"This ones something special, this one just like dynamite" pointing once again at me to sing the next line.

"Fell in love with honey like my, oh my"

He takes his crutch just as I finish my line "Honey looking wonderful, fly, so fly"

"Honey like a supermodel, my, oh my"

"Baby, how you do that, make a grown man cry?" dropping his crutch he takes a long needed breath "well shit, we should start our own band"

I fall back on my bed sighing with a smile on my face "you have a nice voice you know"

"well thank you ever so much, nice moves by the way"

I sit up leaning on my elbows "what moves" he sits back in his chair spreading his legs apart smiling.

"That little foot move you did back there, don't even try me I saw it all"

"Tell anyone and I'll break your legs" I laugh as he does too. It's been a second since I smiled, mainly because every time I do I just feel bad, like I don't deserve it, but Max has just changed that all in the span of a minute, he won't ever know how much this truly means to me.

"How are you?" he asks completely out of nowhere.

"I think I should be asking you that"

"Mia" he sighs making me sit up. I rest my back against the headboard slightly avoiding his gaze that's on me. I know he's trying to read something off me but he's only just wasting his time.

"I'm fine Max"

"when you both got home those six days ago I might have been high on like every drug know to man but it was clear enough to see something happened, so what happened"

"Nothing that will ever repeat itself, that's what"

"Why not?"

"Because it just can't Max"

"It's clear you both feel something for each other so why play this game of pretend. Is it easier or something?"

"There is nothing easy about not being able to be with someone who makes you feel like walking on ceilings is actually possible" I say a little too fast for even my liking. It's true though, every single word.

He shifts in his chair sitting up more and I finally look at him.

"I don't understand then, why not just be with him then?"

"Because I have so much that's still haunting me and so does he. Being with a person that makes you feel like you're alive wont make everything else that's horrible go away for long, It just gets you addicted to that feeling of safety, of happiness and when they're not there, when that feeling doesn't stick around with you all day long it drives you completely insane. It drives you insane because every single drop of everything you have buried under comes back to drown you all over again. You get too attached then lose yourself in the process and that's not healing Max, that's just you running away and not being able to handle what's there, what's really there and you can't run forever. Trust me on that"

Silence takes over and I'm guessing he's taking in everything I've just said. I've ran for so long that I honestly believe I could run without stopping now. But that's the issue, I don't want to run I simply want to fucking kill everything that is chasing me.

"So in other words for these two people to be together they need to heal separately?"

"Exactly Max, exactly"

"Well shit" leaning back into his chair he shoot his eyes back to me "have you guys even talked a bit?"

"Nope" I sigh.

"Then I need to go and see who I need to be replacing"

"What do you mean"

"Mia last time you ignored him for an hour he shot one guy and broke another's fingers to make a point. It's now been nearly a weeks, he probably mascaraed a whole fucking town"

I laugh shaking my head "I doubt he even noticed Max"

"Mia, for someone who's so smart you really are a tad stupid"

"Asshole"

"I'm your best friend, I'm allowed to say that" he stands up taking his crutches walking out the door.

"Hey Max"

He stops, spinning back to me right at my door.

"Thank you"

"For what?"

"Just for being here"

"Always" he smiles walking out. I on the other hand slouch even deeper into my bed. I wish i could just lay here forever singing and being warm, not a care in the world.

key word, wish.