Leaving The Past Behind ❤️

Decisions

Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think too much
But say nothing at all
Tell her from this high terrain
I am ready now to fall

-Tell Her This, Del Amitri

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Steve groaned as he looked at Poppy, "I'm here to wait for you to return. How was your date?"

She shrugged, "it wasn't a date per say. Mostly just friends hanging out. I wanted to invite you but you were busy. How as your date?"

Steve sighed, looking down at his feet as he shook his head, "it wasn't really. I'm sorry Poppy."

She took a step towards him, "for what Steve?"

He looked down at her, locking eyes with her, "for trying to make you jealous. It was stupid and I'm sorry."

"Why were you trying to make me jealous Steve?" She grinned, "not saying that it worked."

He chuckled, grabbing her hand, "because I was jealous of you going out with Zach. And then sleeping at Zach's. And then Rick. I'm jealous Poppy, of anyone that gets to spend time with you when I don't."

Poppy nodded, intertwining her fingers with Steve's. "I'm with Zach and I really like him. And he's okay with the fact that I can't have kids."

Steve groaned, "I'm okay with that too." He brought his free hand up to her cheek, "I didn't mean the way it came out. What I meant was that I don't really know what I'm doing. As if that isn't obvious by now."

Poppy chuckled, "that's obvious. But I don't really know what I'm doing either Steve. But here I am, trying."

He nodded, "I know. You're doing amazing. I'm sorry I've been a jerk." He caressed her cheek with his thumb, "can I kiss you?"

Poppy hesitated, but nodded, "I'd like that Steve."

Steve brought her hand up to his neck, resting his hand on the small of her back. He heard her let out a small whimper as he pulled her body firmly to his as he pressed his lips softly to hers.

Poppy ran her hand up into his hair as she met his tongue with hers, the kiss becoming more urgent before he pulled away. "Are you going to take it back this time?"

Steve chuckled, shaking his head, "no. But I should get home."

Poppy looked at her phone, "it's late Steve. Stay here. You can sleep with me. If you want." She saw him hesitate, "just sleep."

Steve nodded, following her to her room as she led him by his hand.

She paused outside her bedroom, "let me change."

Steve nodded, leaning against the wall next to her door as he watched her go into her room. She opened the door for him after a few minutes and he watched her lay down in bed in shorts and a tank top. He looked down at his clothes and back up to her. He saw her smile, turning away from him as he got undressed down to his underwear and t-shirt. He turned off the light before crawling into bed beside her.

Poppy rolled back to face him, looking at him as she placed her hand on his cheek. Steve smiled, moving closer to her as he rested his hand at her waist. Poppy mirrored him, moving her hand from his cheek, resting it at his waist as he leaned his forehead against hers as they closed their eyes.

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Bucky entered Poppy's room in the morning, finding her asleep with Steve in her bed. He smiled, backing out of the room quietly shutting the door as he did. He ran into Sam in the hall, "Steve is asleep in Poppy's bed. With Poppy."

Sam smiled, "really? About time!"

Bucky laughed, "yeah. Don't wake them up. They need to figure this out for themselves."

Sam nodded and shrugged, "of course. What is she going to do about Zach? Does she feel the same way about Steve?"

Bucky shrugged, "I don't know Sam. But yes, I think she feels the same way."

Poppy felt Steve stir beside her, waking her up. She opened her eyes to see him watching her, "hi."

Steve smiled, "good morning Poppy." He pulled her closer to him by her waist, planting a kiss on her lips. He pulled back, looking at her as she ran her hand up to his hair, pulling his lips back to hers. She moaned as he pinned her under him, his tongue finding hers before she pushed him away.

She groaned, "I'm sorry. I'm..." She sat up, pulling her knees to her chest. "I'm not ready. And I have a boyfriend. And I'm confused."

Steve nodded, sitting up next to her, "I know you are. I'm sorry Poppy." He sat next to her, wrapping his arm around her as she turned to face him, resting her chin on her shoulder. He brought his face hovering in front of hers as he brought a hand to her cheek.

"I like Zach, Steve."

He shrugged, "I know. But you can't deny how you feel for me can you?"

Poppy shook her head, "no. But you've been all hot and cold." She groaned, standing up from the bed, "why now Steve?"

Steve sighed, getting up as he put on his jeans, "I'm sorry Poppy. I've been an idiot! But I want to be with you. Please, think about it. I will wait for you." He grinned, approaching her, "even if you choose Zach now, you'll change your mind. And I'll wait."

Poppy chuckled, looking at the ground, "I don't know Steve."

He brought his hand to her chin, tilting her head up to look at him, "I do know. I'm sorry I've been an idiot. Come over tomorrow. Visit Lily? And me."

She smiled at his grin as she nodded, "I do miss Lily."

Steve laughed, "I know." He kissed her softly before pulling away. He pulled off his t-shirt, handing it to her as she grinned, pulling it to her chest as she smelled it.

She watched him put on his button down, watching her as he did. "I'll see you tomorrow Steve." She saw him smile and nod before leaving her room. She sighed, sitting on the edge of the bed as she picked up her phone to find messages from Zach. She groaned, laying back on the bed. Finally she sighed, getting up and getting dressed, pulling her hair back as she did. She laid Steve's shirt on her pillow before leaving her room.

Bucky found Poppy punching a bag in the training room. He approached her, "do you want to talk about Steve sleeping in your bed?"

Poppy groaned, stopping to turn to face Bucky, "I do not. Please."

Bucky nodded, "okay." He saw her nod as she went back to hitting the bag, harder than before.