How can I expect things not to go wrong
When everyone I've ever loved is gone
It's not your fault I feel this way
I just can't keep trying to stay sane
Maybe one day I won't have to go to bed at night
With my chest so goddamn tight
When I'm so full of fright
Of where I've been, where I could end up again
I'm so afraid of losing you that I'm doing it without trying to
The love I bring never seems to outweigh the self sabotage
It's always been my thing
So I'll swallow my pride and hope for the best
Though I never take the rest into account
Maybe optimism is too naïve
Maybe that's why everyone always leaves
I keep saying how you're so much different
As if I haven't said that before
Like no one before you ever walked out the door
It'll be a familiar feeling
I just wish I wasn't so used to the screaming
Ringing in my ears, bouncing through my brain
I've always been so mesmerized by the flames
I keep trying but it never works
Why keep going if it always hurts?
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