How can I expect things not to go wrong
When everyone I've ever loved is gone
It's not your fault I feel this way
I just can't keep trying to stay saneMaybe one day I won't have to go to bed at night
With my chest so goddamn tight
When I'm so full of fright
Of where I've been, where I could end up againI'm so afraid of losing you that I'm doing it without trying to
The love I bring never seems to outweigh the self sabotage
It's always been my thingSo I'll swallow my pride and hope for the best
Though I never take the rest into account
Maybe optimism is too naïve
Maybe that's why everyone always leavesI keep saying how you're so much different
As if I haven't said that before
Like no one before you ever walked out the doorIt'll be a familiar feeling
I just wish I wasn't so used to the screaming
Ringing in my ears, bouncing through my brain
I've always been so mesmerized by the flamesI keep trying but it never works
Why keep going if it always hurts?
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