I don't know why I do the things I do.
I don't know why I make choices without thinking twice about them.
I don't know why I get myself into things knowing that only misery will come from it.
I don't know why I'm constantly digging myself further and further into the ground, knowing that, eventually, I won't be able to climb back out.
I don't know why I do these things, but I know that I can't stop myself from doing so.
Because... As much as I hate to admit it... There are reasons for my decisions.
And even though it may seem crazy to some, I will continue to drive in these circles.
Because I crave to feel.
I crave attention.
I crave affection.
I crave adoration.
And, recently, I've only wanted those things from one specific person.
My mind may look muddled to some, but I will continue down this path nonetheless.
Because, for some godforsaken reason, my sights have been set on you.
And it seems to be unwavering.
Now all I can do is wait it out and hope I don't fuck this up like I have everything else.
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random thoughts & scrawls
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