If Only They Knew (Book 1.5) (AU Series) - INTERSEX

Chapter Twenty-Three

Olivia

I haven't told my parents I'm four and half months pregnant. It's not that I'm scared... I lie. I'm scared. I'm terrified. They won't hurt me or whatever, but they would be disappointed. I can't see their faces looking at me like that. Like I'm a fuck up.

Dad and mom have been away on a trip for the agency with Jones and Rayden's dad Alex. They've been gone for almost a month, so any weight I've gained, which isn't much, hasn't been seen by them. I miss them. My parents. They left Olly, my younger sister, with my older brother Oliver. He lives like 10 minutes away from us. But I'm thankful because I have other things to worry about.

I sit on the doctor's table while Rayden rubs my stomach. It's raised a little but not too much. She's not happy with me not allowing her to tell anyone. But it's my body, and I don't want anyone to know. This is our second checkup together. At the first one, neither of us was too happy to see a little black dot pop up on the screen. Hopefully, today might be a little better. I'm still not happy that I'm pregnant so early, but this child was conceived with my best friend and the woman I love with everything in me. Since day one.

"Are you okay?" Ray asks, staring at my exposed stomach.

"Who me or the baby?" I smile, and she smiles back.

"You, Love." I know she hasn't grown an attachment to the baby yet, but I want to keep it.

"I'm okay, Ray." I rub her cheek and tuck loose strands of her golden tresses behind her ear. My eyes glance over her beautiful face, counting each beauty mark. I've known her my entire life. We have never been apart. We've told each other our deepest secrets and created even deeper ones together. This is the woman I dream of marrying every night I fall asleep.

She leans her face into my palm, kissing it. The doctor walks in, and she grabs my hand, gripping it tightly. She gets so anxious being here.

"Okay. Blood work looks great. How about we get that first heart beat? How's that sound?" The doctor says, taking a seat next to the monitor. I look over to Rayden, and she nods, kissing my hand again. She's been nothing but supportive through this entire journey. She has supported every decision I've made regardless of whether or not she agreed with them.

"Yes. Let's do it." I say. He grabs the jell, squeezing the cold contents on my belly and moving it around before clicking a few buttons on the monitor. We look at it, and see that the baby has grown quite a bit since week 4. We see the head, body, hands and feet. I look over to Ray, beaming with excitement, but her eyes never leave the screen. She holds my hand close to her lips as her breathing hitches slightly.

We hear some more clicks on the keyboard before a booming sound comes through the speakers. It's a fast, strong heartbeat, sounding like a hundred horses stampeding through a field. Her grip tightens on my hand, and I look back at her as she begins to cry. This reaction is a complete 180 from our first visit, and I can't help but cry along with her. Just 10 weeks ago, our child did not have a body or a heartbeat; it was a blank space on a screen that Rayden felt hindered our future. The sound of our baby's heartbeat now breaks through her shell.

She kisses my hand and lifts up to kiss me. I giggle as she kisses all over my face. "Would you like to know the gender?" We both look at him and back at each other. Ray grins and tells him yes. She leans her forehead against mine as we wait for the results. Her grayish blue eyes gaze into mine as her smile never falters.

"There we go," he says, pointing to the screen. "You two are having... a girl!" She looks down at me and kisses me again. "She looks healthy. I'll give you two some time. You can meet me out in the lobby when you're ready." He wipes the gel, and I lower my shirt as he walks out.