If Only They Knew (Book 1.5) (AU Series) - INTERSEX

Chapter Fifty-Three

Deleena

"Are you sure, Ms. Jain?"

"Yes, I'll be fine Jef, go enjoy yourself."

He snickers. "Madam, I don't think there's much for me to do here at a prenatal retreat for pregnant women."

"You don't have to stay here. Go explore the island," he groans.

"Is that an order, Madam?"

"Definitely an order. I'll be fine. Look, I have yoga at 12 and a massage at 3," I say, showing him my schedule.

"Fine, but if you need anything, you call me." I kiss his cheek.

"I will. Thank you."

"Mhmm," he grabs his bags, and I watch as he walks away. This is the first time I have ever seen him in something other than a suit. He is wearing salmon-colored floral shorts and a tank top. I chuckle as he walks away.

I sigh and sit on my bed. I pick up my phone and linger over her number once more. It's been two weeks since she answered the phone. I'm not even sure if she was the one who answered it. Nobody said anything. It sounded more like water running, and then the phone just hung up.

I grab my notebook and sit at the desk in my suite. The pen lingers above the page, and I contemplate writing.

𝐽𝑢𝑛𝑒 27 - 𝐷𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝐽𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑙,

𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑛 𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑟𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒. 𝑊𝑒𝑙𝑙, 𝑎 𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑙, 𝑎𝑠 𝑉𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑡. 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑡ℎ. 𝑉𝑎𝑙 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑎𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘. 𝐼 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟. 𝐴 𝑙𝑜𝑡. 𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑧𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑒𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑟/ 𝑠𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝐷𝑜𝑚/𝑠𝑢𝑏 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠... 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑠... 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑎𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔.

𝐼 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑜 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ. 𝐼'𝑚 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑛'𝑠 𝑠𝑎𝑘𝑒, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑎 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑. 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦𝑒𝑑. 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑒𝑟, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑤... 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑚𝑒. 𝐼 𝑔𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝐼 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑡. 𝐼 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟. 𝐼𝑛 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑜𝑛𝑒. 𝐼 𝑙𝑒𝑓𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑𝑏𝑦𝑒.

𝐼 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛, 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑦. 𝑁𝑜𝑤, 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙. 𝐼 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟.

𝐼 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑦 𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑... 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑀𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑎 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑. 𝐵𝑢𝑡... 𝐼 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡. 𝑁𝑜 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑒, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑎 𝑚𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟. 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑒𝑟... 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑓 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑒𝑡.