if you see these men, RUN. || (DAVE EAST) (CHRIS BROWN)

Chapter 28

the first half of this song describes their situation so well
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Capri Martin, 11:00pm
Every other Friday my parents took my brother and I out to dinner. It used to be fun when we were younger but now the shit just felt forced. Felt like we were trying to uphold this perfect family image when that really wasn't the case.

My parents argued the entire time and it was just so awkward. Both me and my brother were relieved when we got home. The entire night was just filled with endless and meaningless bickering. I was so glad I was going to be able to lock myself in my room and not have to listen to it anymore.

Left my phone at home too, so you already know I was eager as fuck to get back on it. Laying on my bed, I kicked off my shoes and wanted to do nothing but go sleep.

Yesterday and today really blew me. And there was nothing I could do about it. I didn't want to be left alone with my thoughts so I figured I'd call Sam.

But then I remembered her and Sonny were spending tonight together. So I immediately
thought of Zillah. Clicking on her contact, I FaceTimed her with the quickness. But when she picked up, sum was off.

Camera was black and I could hear voices and other noises in the background.

"Z?" I questioned.

No answer but I still heard voices and as I listened...I realized I wasn't meant to hear anything going on in the background.

Her and Jayceon had to be together doing sum...She most likely answered by accident and it was so awkward to hear this shit but I think Zillah was getting her back broken on the other end.

I never hung up on somebody so fast. That was so awkward and I was definitely going to pretend it never happened.

I didn't even wanna think about what Jay's nasty ass was doing to Z. Now that image will forever be ingrained into my mind.

Now, feeling utterly uncomfortable and speechless, I sat on my bed and stared into space. I really had no plans this weekend. No one to talk to tonight, I just felt lonely.

I didn't want to be around my family anymore, I just wanted to be away from them. Or at least have someone to distract me from the fact that we were semi-dysfunctional. But I had nobody.

And the thought alone brought me to tears. And there I sat, fully dressed in my going out clothes and crying. Mascara just running and I knew I looked stupid.

Honestly, it wouldn't be as bad if Q and I hadn't argued the way we did. Maybe that's all it was. Because I didn't really care when my parents argued. But I couldn't help but think what things would be like if Micah didn't approach me. Or if I came at Q a different way than I did.

But it was all over now and I had to sit and think about my actions. Maybe the next person I meet, I'll know what not to do I guess.

Q was just a lesson.

I hated how attached I got in a short period of time. It was a libra thing.

Laying in bed, I faced my wall and tried to close my eyes. Maybe if I fell asleep I'd feel slightly better about the last few days. I had all weekend to get over it.

As I listened to the wind howl outside, I tried counting every time a tree branch tapped against my window. Helped me fall asleep every single time.

I was on number 15 before I heard my phone buzz. For some reason, I just KNEW it was Zillah trying to see if I heard anything that went down with her and Jay.

I already rehearsed my lines. "I AIN'T SEE SHIT. I AIN'T HEAR SHIT. I HUNG UP AS SOON AS YOU PICKED UP." Which was all a lie.

But when I checked my phone, it had been somebody completely different. Someone I wasn't really expecting.