if you see these men, RUN. || (DAVE EAST) (CHRIS BROWN)

Chapter 63

tell this man to stop lookin at me like that please??? 🧍🏽‍♀️i don't even like him like that.
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Q Grey
Saturday morning
We was posed to go on our luh date today. I had the day all planned out. But now because of my stupidity, I was layin in my bed looking at pictures of ha. She had me real down bad.

Eli did warn me though.

All cause I couldn't tell her how I felt. And it ate me up inside. Made me all sad. And I was a thug. I ain't never get sad. Maybe if I grew up different, it'd be easier to talk about my feelings...With a more emotional parent than my pops.

I swear this girl had me drawing ha name in graffiti letters with the art supplies SHE GAVE ME. It was bad. Like...real bad.

I hated when I hurt ha. But I wunt thinking last night. The drink had me fucked up a luh bit. Then all the weed we smoked. It was like I got caught up in the music and stopped thinking.

But that's what I wanted, right? I wanted to suppress feelings and shit cause I was scared of what my happen if I told ha I liked, liked ha. Still couldn't say the word.

Suddenly, I heard the buzzer at my door. I wasn't gone answer so I continued to lay in bed and flip through pictures of ha. She was so fuckin pretty. Sometimes it was hard to believe she was mine fa real. I really lucked out and didn't realize it sometimes.

Then I heard the buzzer and it rang repeatedly. So I knew it wunt Jen or the mail man. It was Eli's persistent ass.

Sucking my teeth, I made my way down the steps of the pool house and opened the door.

"Nigga it's cold as fuck. Why you had me standing out here?" He shivered, warming his hands up. Then he walked in without me giving him the signal to.

"Bro...did I say you could come in?"

Waving me off, he looked over at me. "You been crying nigga? Yo eyes puffy."

"No." I lied.

"I know it's not over shrimpy ass..."

"It's not over nothing cause I wasn't crying nigga. Nah leave. The door that way, not in my kitchen." I spat.

Taking a seat at the island, he took a deep breath. "I told you we shoulda never went to that party. Cause ima tell you what I think happened. Shrimpy found out, saw yo luh thot stories, wondered why you wunt answerin none of ha messages, and flipped."

I nodded my head. "Yeah."

"Exactly. I know. I been through the game. Ion know why you scared to just say you love ha and call it a day. It rolls right off the tongue so easily. Ain't THAT hard as you make it seem."

"Ion know man. What if sheon feel the same way?" I questioned.

Eli's face fell flat and his eyes hung low. "Really nigga? Shrimpy luh yo ass too. You just bad at communicating sometimes. I get it. I am too. But when ha feelins is clear as day, it shouldn't be hard to say it."

"I wish I could tell ha what you just told me."

"Gone head to ha crib then." He shrugged, stealing a banana out the fruit bowl Jen insisted on me having.

"She blocked me on everything and ha mama home. I'm not risking getting a beat down from the both a them. I was thinking I could just chase her round school on Monday and try to get ha back."

"See nigga. Stupid decisions. Youn think." He shrugged, eating the banana sideways like a burger.

"You right."

"I know I am. I got more experience than you. I'm the big nigga round here."

"You're 20 my nigga. And we barely two years apart cause I'm right behind you." I squinted.