Amnesia (Camren)

Chapter Two

"I can't believe I wasted my time on you! I believed it was all real! Do you know how much it hurts to know that you're happy with him, that you've moved on, was all just a lie! Did you even love me at all?"

I was watching Lauren, her eyes red-rimmed from the tears she had to be crying. I couldn't tell much through the rain, but she had to be crying.

I wasn't sure what to say. No words came to mind to what I could argue back.

Had I moved on? Yeah, I guess I had, but it was for personal reasons. I had to get away, run away from myself and I couldn't do that with Lauren, could I?

So I had left her, for Jess, to pretend to be something I wasn't... just to please the public eye and my crazy thoughts. My crazy thoughts that told me this was all wrong. It was so right, but felt so wrong at the same time. I couldn't push her to follow me, or keep being with her when I was having conflicting thoughts.

"Are you not gonna say anything? Do I not matter to you now that he is your 'love'?"

I had played the role to the full extent making everyone believe I was "so in love" with Jess. I was far from it, and was using him as my beard, but I wasn't ready to push aside my conflicting thoughts to acknowledge that I was different.

"I thought this was all a dream...the broken heart, the breakup... But when I woke up, the pain returned and I wished I had amnesia to forget about all the stupid things we used to have."

My heart was hurting from ignoring her conversation with me, but what she just spoke, it hurt my whole being. I did not want to be erased from her mind. That was the last thing I would want to happen to our memories. She was important, she would always be important to me. Whether we were together or just great friends, she meant a lot to me. Of course she didn't know that, but I did.

"Because I don't love you anymore and I never will."

I flinched at her last set of words spoken. They pierced through me and into the depths of my soul. I could feel my heart breaking into pieces and falling down to my feet in front of me. This was far from what I expected to hear from her when she came to my house to talk to me. She had appeared dripping wet from the rain that had not stopped falling. I had begged her to come inside before she caught a cold, but she refused, starting this horrible conversation.

She turned away from me, and started to walk. I noticed from the corner of my eye a car was coming. Lauren never looked up as she stepped off the sidewalk.

"Lauren!" I cried, trying to warn her. She ignored me and continued on her way. " LAUREN!" I ran forward to her, but it was too late. I watched in horror as the car crashed into her and her body went flying a good ten feet away from the car.

The person in the car leapt out of it and rushed towards Lauren and met me there at the same time. I dropped to my knees and tried to check her without moving her. Blood was gushing out of her temple. I removed my jacket and tried to press it to her temple to try to stop the bleeding. I turned around to yell at the person who had hit her to call 911.

"Camila?"

I was awaken from my nightmare. That whole night had been haunting me for the past year. Every night, I had the same nightmare, the night Lauren had been in an accident. This time I was spared seeing more of her wounds like I usually did.

I turned to look at who had woken me up. It was Mrs. Jauregui. I stood up quickly not sure of what was going on.

"Relax mija. I just wanted to let you know that the doctors have given permission for Lauren to leave the hospital. They say she is in good health and see no reason for her to not be leaving and trying to get back to her life."