meant to be | seongsang (✓)

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despite the kisses that had occurs and all the feelings that were clearly there, the four boys responsible continued on as if nothing had ever happened. things felt mostly normal again, despite the lingering heavy feeling in both seonghwa and yeosang's hearts.

it wasn't long until yeosang decided to give staying the night at his own apartment a chance, although he had grown comfortable living with san and wooyoung. jongho had recently gone back to his own house, finally feeling strong enough to step foot inside and face the truth of his father being gone, but he was over at the older couple's daily to see yeosang.

yeosang sucked in a deep breath as he unlocked the door, walking inside to an empty apartment. he frowned slightly, having hoped seonghwa would be there, but soon realized he had no idea if seonghwa had even gotten a job. he felt detached from the boy he once loved so fully, and yet he still couldn't imagine a life without that boy by his side.

he fell asleep within a couple hours on the couch, one of his animes playing and a bowl of popcorn on the coffee table in front of him. it was around half an hour after that seonghwa returned from work, letting out a soft gasp at the beautiful boy sleeping on the sofa.

he was absolutely stunned to see yeosang in their apartment again, he had thought for sure that he had lost the boy for good this time. seonghwa carefully slid his shoes off and made his way to the couch, sitting on the edge and gently brushing yeosang's hair out of his eyes.

"mm," yeosang muttered softly, stirring at the older's touch. "hwa?"

"hi, love... i didn't mean to wake you..."

"it's okay, hwa... i-i didn't mean to fall asleep."

"listen, i'm gonna go shower real quick and change into some better smelling clothes... do you want to go lay down in our room?"

"mm, yes please... cuddles after?"

"whatever you'd like... a-and maybe after that we can talk? does that sound okay?"

yeosang hummed in agreement with a small nod, his eyes fluttering open to see seonghwa in his work uniform, bringing a small smile to the younger's face.

"you got a job..."

"yeah... hongjoong helped get me the interview..."

"that was nice of him..."

"yeah... r-really nice," seonghwa said softly, his heart clenching in guilt.

how could he have kissed hongjoong? he was surely going to lose yeosang now...

"you go shower... i'll see you in our room," yeosang whispered, kissing the older's cheek.

seonghwa felt tears well up in his eyes at the feeling of the younger's lips against his cheek, the guilt he felt growing as he nodded. yeosang was so perfect, how could he do this to him? he felt like a monster. and yet a part of him still didn't regret kissing hongjoong.

yeosang made his way to their shared bedroom and seonghwa hurriedly got his clothes together so he could shower.

the second he got in, he let the hot tears run down his cheeks, guilt eating him alive in every way possible.

"fuck..." he whispered, sniffling.

meanwhile in the bedroom, yeosang sat staring at the ceiling, a broken smile on his face. seonghwa wasn't okay and he could tell, and the younger blamed himself. not only that, but he was beginning to feel guilty about sharing a kiss with jongho. seonghwa didn't deserve that kind of hurt. he quickly pulled out his phone, texting wooyoung for help.

yeosang
woo i need ur help

wooyoung
do u need me to come
get you?? u know i will