meant to be | seongsang (✓)

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seonghwa didn't know how much time had passed at this point. a month maybe? possibly longer?? he had no clue, all he knew was that adjusting to the idea of not being able to call yeosang his stung. the boy he had loved for four years had vanished from his life, and he didn't know what to do. he was lucky to have mingi, yunho and hongjoong by his side. even san came over sometimes to hang out with the group, but wooyoung and jongho were constantly at yeosang's side, meaning he didn't see much of them.

seonghwa was high off his ass by the time hongjoong got off his shift and came over, having promised the older a movie night when he was out. once yeosang had gotten all of his things, he gave hongjoong his key, making the boy promise that he would take care of seonghwa while he healed. of course hongjoong agreed, and now he had easy access to the boy's apartment, which meant that on days where seonghwa didn't feel like getting up for anything, hongjoong could let himself in.

"hwa... i thought you were going to wait for me," hongjoong whined softly as he walked in.

"couldn't... it hurt too much."

hongjoong frowned at this, walking around the couch and sitting beside the older.

"you need to wait when you feel like this... one day you're going to end up so fucked up that you start seeing things."

"off weed?"

"do you think i'm stupid, hwa? i know you've been drinking. and i know how you get when you're crossed."

"i—"

"no more. i'm getting you water and we're watching our movie in your room."

"but i—"

"shh."

seonghwa went quiet and the younger got up, quickly putting out the joint and making sure to tuck it away where seonghwa wouldn't get it before he went to get the boy some water. once he had, hongjoong sat down beside seonghwa and handed him the glass.

"drink."

seonghwa obliged, taking small sips of his water.

"when's the last time you ate today?"

"i dunno," seonghwa muttered.

"okay... what do you want to eat then?"

"i'm okay with whatever..."

"seonghwa... look at me," hongjoong said softly, gently putting his hand on the older's wrist. "i know it's hard, yeah? you guys were together for a really long time, but if you want things to feel better, you need to at least work with me, okay? i'm doing everything i can to try and help you, hwa. i want you to feel better. i want the boy i fell for back, because all that i'm left with right now is the ghost of him."

"m-maybe you should just stop trying..." seonghwa muttered, eyes now welling with tears.

"i'm never going to stop trying, hwa... don't talk like that. i'd never give up on you that easy."

"b-but you did when yeosang and i got together..."

"you know why? because you were happy. and i didn't give up on you, because look at me. i'm still here, and i never stopped liking you. i just had to respect the fact that you loved someone else."

"o-oh..."

"what would you like to eat, hwa?" hongjoong asked softly, gently rubbing the back of seonghwa's neck.

"um... bibimbap?"

"i can do that... i'll order right now. how about you go to your room and pick out a movie, yeah?"

seonghwa nodded, looking at hongjoong with vulnerable eyes.

"it's okay... i'll be in there in a minute, i'm going to order and grab some water," hongjoong whispered, gently pressing a kiss to seonghwa's temple. "i'm not leaving."

seonghwa sighed, nodding and sniffling as he got up and made his way to his room. he didn't feel like watching a movie anymore, honestly, he just wanted to cuddle with hongjoong and go back to sleep.

hongjoong practically lived at seonghwa's at this point, spending every waking moment with the boy when they weren't at work, and even staying the night quite often. seonghwa found comfort in having the younger holding him, or even holding the younger himself.

"joong?" seonghwa whispered when the younger walked in.

"yeah, what's up?"

"thank you for everything... really."

"ah, don't thank me..."

"but i have to... without you, i-i really don't know how i'd be getting through any of this."

"seonghwa..."

seonghwa engulfed hongjoong in a tight hug, letting out a sigh.

the two sat in silence for a bit, seonghwa calming himself down in hongjoong's warm embrace. the younger pressed soft kisses to the latter's temple, eventually whispering words of affirmation to the boy.

"our food's gonna be here soon. do you want to eat in here or at the table?"

"here?" seonghwa asked softly.

"okay... we can do that," hongjoong said, gently brushing his hand through seonghwa's hair.

"thank you..."

"of course, love..."

seonghwa smiled small, letting out a soft hum of appreciation. shortly after, the doorbell rang and hongjoong went to get their food. he came back and jumped onto the bed, being careful to keep their food still, then seonghwa let out a laugh. hongjoong smiled at this, then the two took out their food and started to eat.

when they had finished, seonghwa quickly reached over and gave hongjoong's hand a grateful squeeze.

"you know, i'm glad you're here... it means a lot to me."

"i'm happy to be here..."

"stay with me forever?"

"forever and always, hwa."

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