Meant To Be

Always

Today has been a tough one for me. Not physically but mentally. There are somethings that have happened in my past that I haven't told anyone before. The only people that know about is my family.

I wake up and am already in a somewhat depressed mood. Paige notices this and a concerned look crosses her face.

"Babe, are you okay?" She whispers to me as she gives me a hug from behind.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I say tiredly say.

"Are you sure?" She asks again.

"Paige, I said I'm fine" I snap at her.

I look up to see hurt in her eyes and I realize what I've done. 

"Baby I'm sorry I didn't mean it, I'm just tired that's all" I quickly respond.

"Okay" she says back.

Fuck, now she's mad at me.

*Time Skip*

I've been in a mood the whole day and it really showed at practice. I was missing shots left and right, missing crosses, and my passes were complete shit. 

"Collins! Over here please!" My coach yelled.

"Yeah coach?"

"What's up with you today? You're playing like shit"

"I know and I am so sorry coach, its just today has been hard for me. My dad died a couple years ago on this day and its been super hard for me." I say with tears in my eyes.

"It's okay, let it out" she says while hugging me. "Why don't you take the rest of the day off and take some time to rest okay?"

"Thank you coach" I manage to spit out.

I drive back to my dorm and call Paige right away.

"Paigey I need you" I cry

"Baby what's wrong?" She asks with her voice full of concern.

"I'll tell you when you come over".

"On my way".

A couple minutes later I hear a knock on my door and Paige walks in with her arms full of things.

I walk over still crying and hug her right away making her drop everything which were just some blankets and some of her clothes.

"Shhhhhh its okay let it out" she says while picking me up and walking to the couch.

"What's wrong baby?"

"There's something I need to tell you. Today is the three year anniversary of my dad's death." I whisper.

"I'm so sorry baby. Why didn't you tell me earlier?" She questions.

"I don't know" I say while starting to cry again.

"You know you can always tell me anything okay? I will ALWAYS be here for you." She whispers into my ear.

"I love you Paigey" I sniffle while holding onto her tighter.

"I love you more".