Ever think nobody can relate to your situation? This is my story, and how i thought this so often that i have resulted to writing this. Truths, thoughts, experiences i have, all laid bare and raw. This is A Diary . THIS IS NOT FICTION.
Ok so in this book you will see alot of dream entries because i do have vivid, crazy dreams and nightmares alike and im really into the idea of the meaning behind dreams and why we dream etc. one of my theories are that either when we sleep were in another life or something and when we are awake we get deja vu because of already having lived the experience in that other life? but sometimes i just think its a mix of the stuff in my head, so im really on the fence about what dreams are at times. i often try to decipher my dreams and what theyre trying to tell me, IF theyre actually trying to tell me anything and ive got it right a few times, but usually theres just too many and too different sources that i dont know what to think. maybe ill talk more about it in another entry in the future.
so this dream i had last night which featured 2 famous characters (this happens occasionally that i am either a character or with some) so the ones in my dream were... drumroll!!! JOKERfrom suicide squad!
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yep, jared leto's joker and i was pleasantly surprised because i went through a phase where i was completely in love and obsessed with his joker and the idea of belonging to a gangster who loved me and only me kinda shit. dont judge me, im fucked up like that. so he was there and the other character was MAVE from lucifer.
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for those of you who dont know lucifer is a murder mystery crime show where the devil aka lucifer (duh) comes to earth and decides to become a consultant to the LAPD. Mave is a demon in woman form who is like his best friend/most loyal demon who followed him to earth. i was a little surprised at this choice of characters because i havent watched either shows in the longest time.
also, everyone knows that dreams are often cut off at parts and suddenly change in a heartbeat and are never straight forward. also idk about others because i have never talked to people about dreams but in mine, i can think as if i would when im awake and i often know when im dreaming. liek in the dream ill think "oh this is just a dream, cool" so yea
so now that weve established who i was with, lets start. the first thing i remember is being in a house/apartment with Mave, i guess we lived together? no wait! the first thing i remember that i was with joker, yea and for some reason there were 2 of them? like identical copies or some twisted shit? and there are tons of firearms lying around the place along with knives and other such stuff which isnt unusual considering its the joker im with. so were in this house and i grab joker's hand (at this point i feel we were like "together") and this is supposedly after he breaks up with harley quinn and so hes completely smitten by me by the looks of it and im taking him to the other side of the house and into the weird room where i find another joker. now he looks the exact same but acts less like himself, hes more level headed and polite?? like tf? and so i grab the gun form the holster of the real joker who im with and point it at the "imposter".
he raises his hands and the next thing i know theyre both in front of me and i dont know who to shoot because the imposter has now taken on the madman demeanor as well. but i know my joker so i shoot the imposter and he falls to the ground, i shot twice again for good measure. the real joker now looks at the dead one then looks up at me and smiles the mad smile, i obviously grin back. but then the smile changes into a grimace and anger outlines his features and he looks around for a weapon. i react quick and shoot him in the leg to incapacitate him until i can figure out wtf is going on. but hes still relentless he grabs one of the knives and tries to lunge at me but i dodge it. i was now getting the feeling that he was upset i killed his clone? and since he is insane his reaction was no surprise.
so anywho it gets to a point where i loose the gun somehow and he gets it and now hes holding it pointed at me with this feral looking expression. i just stand there unbothered, holding my ground in front of him, knowing full and well he wont shoot me. and sure enough he points it atthe floor for a second looks away with a agonized/conflicted face and then points it at me again. i keep a cool face through it and he still cant pull the trigger. i spot a gun nearby and as he is still conflicted i grab it and shoot him right in the chest. calm, collected i watch as he falls to the floor and lets out a laugh. i go closer and use my foot to get the gun he dropped out of his range and just like that, hes gone.
Enter mave, suddenly out of thin air shes helping me go around and clean up the mess and were getting ready to get the fuck out of there before the police shows up. i grab a clot and wipe the gun i was holding and throw it in a corner of the room, so we clean up pretending like there arent two joker bodies in the place. and the next thing i know im packing a bag with my essentials and im out of there. The end.
so yea that was the dream, i think there was something more that happened but i have no memory of it. hope yoy enjoyed this psyco dream, if you plan on sticking around get used to it cuz youre gonna get alot more. soon ill talk about my first and only sleep paralysis experience which happened very recently. until then, bye.
