SO i believe the last entry i made i mentioned the new individual that had come into my life...
Your girl is....
what do i even say....
This past week of my life has been some of the happiest and scariest time of my life. theres been alot of laughing, screaming, squealing and giggling...
even more blushing, scramblinf for words, malfunctioning and deep breaths.
But then there has also been panic, terror, confusion, doubts, questions, anxiety, butterflies and a little crying.
Im trying to find a way to write this but i dont even know where to start... so ill start b recapping how it started. on my hang with zoey on the 15th of october. i was introduced to enzo. and since then we have begun talking.
Now let me peface this by saying that i dont date. i dont do realtionships. i dont do boyfriends or girlfriends. and yet.
This man cam into my life and flipped it upside down in less than a week. I dont even know how to describe it properly. theres is sooooo much to tell and soo much to explain i could fill pages and pages upon pages.
it started out as attraction as most things do, i had my eye on him in zoeys insta stories even when i didnt know him, didnt know his name, didnt know anything about him. guess it was really in the stars for us to meet, and those were the signs. so when we do finally get to talking we instantly start flirting with nicknames and teasing. theres a connection there thats impossible to miss.
He was such a gentleman, still is. and a swweheart. so polite and respectful. but that is not to say that he is not dirty and bold. hooooohhhhh. hehehehe. i need to take deep breaths just thinking about some of the things he has said... first day itself we start flirting and talk about kinks and turn ons.
by day two we play some truth or dare, find out basic facts about each other and we have soooo much in common. And hes such a calm and chill person which is top quality istg. after all the shit ive experienced if he showed even the slightest hint of agression i woulve been out of there so fast it would've made his head spin. but no. he is literally the most calm and chill person ive ever met. BETTER yet... he knows how to handle me when im angry!!! like!?? that too calmly!!??
he is literally the most perfect person i have ever been attracted to, and speaking from my previous history of the dicks ive been into, istg old me had no self respect or self esteem. but enzoo.... he makes me feel comfortable in my won skin. i dont have to lie or pretend about what i think or feel, he makes sure i dont overthink about anything we talk about, that if i dont feel comfortable with some comment or anything i can tell him and we can talk about it.
i swear to god this man is a god send. and honestly he is ruining me. he asks me about my day everyday, asks me how i am feeling. texts me good morning and goodnight daily without fail. or is that normal? i wouldnt know lo, ive never experienced normal. And he READSSSSSS. and that will teach a man how to properly treat a woman.
we can talk about anything. the topic can literally change from breakfast to kinks to physics theories to world war 2 history to movies weve seen. hourss with him feel like seconds. and every second is like a gift. not only is he caring but he listens and he remembers. he has a notes app in his phone full of info about me. He can sense the second something is wrong. like howwwww!???
when were together its so easy to be honest with each other, he is fucking honest!! like how???? how does this man exist. AND HE IS HOTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!
WHATT THE FUCKKKKK
ANDDDDD
he sent me a pic of him the first day we started talking. of him. in a button down shirt. with rolled sleeves. and an analogue watch.....
when i tell you... my heart stopped, my ovaries screamed and my stomach lurched.... I AM NOT EXXAGURATING.
We have since sent eachother many pictures and stuff, nothing dirty ofc cuz i dont deal in nudes and also hes a gentleman and has never asked for such nonsense. Did i say he was perfect? let me say it again... hes fucking perfect.
He can make me laugh to the point where i am dying struggling for air in my wee lungs. yesterday after my manic panic episode he made me alugh till my sides hurt.
how can he be so perfectt???
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Life Of "A"
No FicciónEver think nobody can relate to your situation? This is my story, and how i thought this so often that i have resulted to writing this. Truths, thoughts, experiences i have, all laid bare and raw. This is A Diary . THIS IS NOT FICTION.
