ok so even though i do not have time for this entry rant today i will still indulge because tho i dont have time for it i need it vent for my own sanity. and also because i think that i actually have to keep updating cuz of the people who actually bother reading this shit. thank you guys btw. i appreciate it. and also HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! i wish i could come out to my parents but im using delayed gratification instead. i cant wait to introduce my girlfriend to them one day and the look on their faces will be priceless. the good ol saying show dont tell tastes sweeter everytime i picture it.
so where did i leave off last. right the hot italian and job alert. ok so since then ive had some interesting dreams and nightmares so after this ill be posting a dreams log too. but other than that things have been busy to say the least. and interesting. i am in the middle of teaching Pod how to flirt and talk to women. the poor boy was hopeless before but after a single lesson is much improved. im a good teacher i guess. but this was just last night.
im still going strong with the causal on and off sexting with Kevin and having lots of fun myself too. if you know you know. ooo, one of my plants has died off cuz of the heat. well i can say im partially responsible since i didnt water it for a while. but its fine ill replant something else in it this autumn. damn its july already. where did the year go?
anyways, i finally ordered and got my gouache paints which i had wanted for ssoo long and painted some cool stuff with it. including a cute ghibli studios scene. but other than that i havent really gotten a chance to paint.
i have taken up yoga again to relax and unwind, im also meditating which is a first for me but godd is it relaxing as fuck. makes me wonder why i havent done it before. tho i have skipped 3 days now cuz ive been so swamped. ok ok youre probably wondering at this point "what the hell are you so busy with anyway?"
well, my curious little cats, have patience. the job offer place sent me a guidelines list after answering some questions i had. i said yes obviously, and now im just waiting for the contract to come. idk wahts taking so long but then i guess these things dont happen overnight. they gave me a bit of a scare when they didnt answer to my email for almost 3 days but i did also send the email on a saturday so is it partially on me? idk.
but yea i have been working on making some content for that, eventough i havent signed the contract yet, its gonna happen anyway so better be prepared. and snce its my first time its taking me a while to grasp things. i dont have a phone still so im suing canva fo my stuff. i needed pro but its paid but i being the sneaky fox i am, found a way to get pro free for a year.
no its not an illegal method, no at all. i jsut made a student acc at another platform canva was in-cahoots with and linked that account with canva to get the free deal. and boom. where theres a will theres a way. i still need a phone for recording myself which is aslo a first but oh well. and mom has a good one which she only recently got by selling her own jewelry because dad outright refused to get her one. i mean if he had any intention to which he made clear he didnt, he would have done it years ago. but he does hate her parents and family with a passion and accuse them of witchcraft so yea. which is also why im not allowed to talk to them or as much as hear them and vice versa. and that means that dad wont let me use moms phone for recording stuff for my job. so im fucking stuck. but who tf says i have to listen to him?
i know it was hard but thank good god i detached from my father. now i honestly dont give a fuck. it wass the hardest and the most valuable thing ive ever done for myself. its the best decision ive ever made.
anyways fast forward to the second thing thats been keeping me busy is the game that screwed me over. fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. so i have now become less invested in the other stories i play. and its paid off too. in another one i actually did get to pick my guy which i was pleased to see. and in the next one i got to pick both hunks and boy was that fun. ooh, i still have pleasant feeling when remembering the scenes of that story.
YOU ARE READING
Life Of "A"
SaggisticaEver think nobody can relate to your situation? This is my story, and how i thought this so often that i have resulted to writing this. Truths, thoughts, experiences i have, all laid bare and raw. This is A Diary . THIS IS NOT FICTION.
