Life Of "A"

A lot has happened. 14-1-23

Firstly, Happy new year. 

now that thats over with im gonna go on a speed run on the updates cause alot has happened since nov. 30th and alot happened before then that i still havent updated and knowing myself never will so heres the synopsis of the past few months. again. 

october; got my hangout privileges via negotiations and signed a contract with dad on it. had my first hang with my girl crush. got introduced to my soon to be bf.

November; went on my first date. got kissed the shit out of in the most delicious manner, first just lips then rench and boy was it fucking deliciouss. also got choked and felt up. was fantastic. 10/10. made it official to be a gf with the guy.

december; nearly died on 7th. accidentally slit my wrist just near the veins thank fuck it wasnt the veins. real close call. im gonna say this once, it wasnt a suicide attempt, my life and aspirations are far to big not to be seen thru to the very end. the next morning bokr it of with the guy. wasnt working out. ended on good terms. was mad for a bit but fuck it. haven't talked since. thankfully.

january; cried at new years in the car stuck in traffic for 2 hrs because i wanted to go to the venue and see the drone show and fireworks up-close and then have a nice dinner but it never happened. saw the fireworks for the car from afar and drove back home. 

currently its really cold around 11 degrees celsius which is cold af for here and our house doesnt have heating cuz its a hot place so like freezing my toes off because i refuse to wear layers. wrist is much better. my typing rn roves it. got an ugly but cool ass scar tho. its rlly long and about half a cm in width. its vertical too so its a little slanted. 

i'm very bust these days eve tho i dont have school cuz im in the middle of transferring schools. but im busy cuz the day of the cut, in the morning i was taking a break from enzo cuz the whole thing was in a decline and i didnt like it so i was already detached and done from the whole thing. like i said. i dont tolerate bullshit. and so i had a free day and i decided out of nowhere to work on myself for good. i made a list of books to read. non fic and self help etc. started watching ted talks. and i haven't looked back since.

so im  busy these days working on my future and myself. and yea i have nothing much more to update rn. the only reason im even updating still is because ive started this and i have to keep somewhat of a commitment to it and myself since this is a diary first and foremost and i have to keep some form of updates on my life and its events, for my sake at least. 

some extra info. i photoshopped my id to make myself seem 18 and bought a pack of cigarettes in november, the pack is still full. ive only had about 4. and i plan not to have any anytime soon. out of sight out of mind. i got my first designer fragrance addict by dior. i dont like the sharp initial scent of spices but when it mellows out into that hot deep vanilla its mouth watering. im planning to get lancome or good girl next, or ysl maybe. i have a whole list. ive started a yt channel. just yesterday actually. im studying stocks and the market and making onnections with people who are in the buisness and others to help me and guide me etc. trying to get out my comfort zone. also my lil bro introduced me to his friend chris who is already leagues ahead of me in finances even tho hes just 15. and makes quite a bit already. so thats a good connection. and yea just educating myself as much as i can.

until the next update.

-A