Ever think nobody can relate to your situation? This is my story, and how i thought this so often that i have resulted to writing this. Truths, thoughts, experiences i have, all laid bare and raw. This is A Diary . THIS IS NOT FICTION.
ive got a lot to do today so this is probably gonna be short. idk we'll see. the stationary i ordered yesterday arrived this morning and i was stoked because it usually takes 2-3 days. getting ur order before due is top 10 best feelings. i got the monologue basic A5 sketchbook for my painting which for now i will use oil paints but soon hopefully switch to gouache. among other thinks i got a charcoal pencil and some white oil paint.
now ive been a busy bee today, watched a movie or two, btw definitely recommend The Gentlemen, god i love that movie. Best Blend of Comedy and Action. ive completed a sketch i started a while ago. this was the reference image:
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this is the refrence image, not gonna show my study, but it turned out pretty well, i didnt have the grey marker for shading so ive left it without it. im using more references like this to learn hatching since my game at that is 0. also, who doesnt find hand drawings practice beneficial? i mean artists ofc.
now im gonna either try to study- which ill probably end up getting distracted- but i have to get some shit done today. more likely im going to work on my digital submission for this monthly contest website. i need to get on it at this point, the deadline fast approaches.
hmmm, what else? yesterday nothing that interesting happened, i did sext with a friend and in the middle of it saw a huge fuckin cockroach walk past my chair and ran the fuck out of there, called dad- end of said cockroach. anyone ever think its sexist to call all cockroaches COCK-roaches? even females? i mean i get that cockroaches dont have dicks and stuff but if you wanna call em that call them to the males. why nit call the females- Feroach. its catchy isnt it? cockroach and feroach?
lmfao i just got this picture in my head of a roach getting into a couples house- people like me screaming and goin "oi! how the fuck did that cockroach get in here?" and the other person going "how do you know its a cockroach and not a feroach?" and the first person getting frustrated now having jumped onto a table going "i dont know, why dont you fuckin check and correct me if im wrong?"
lol it was funnier in my head. so this guy i was sexting with- lets call him kevin. good ol clueless kevin. he was my class mate back in grade 7 thru 8. dirty mind, hung out with his kind making jokes and stuff. but not a brat. oh no no- hes as polite as they come. but funny still- even challenged the teacher once or twice. fun kid overall. i almost feel bad for having my hooks in him. oh well.
so we started texting a while ago first it was then and there, but upon his persistence and interest its now more regular. hes one of the few people ive come out to in the past year and were quite good friends. hes the first person i told about masturbating. and it didnt stop there. currently the carrier of many of my secrets and i his- having my hooks in him is the least i should do.
he told me alot of things too. how guys get random boners through the day. how me likes it etc. all the usual stuff. hes the one who helped me out with porn. you see i couldnt get pornhub to work and so he told me the whole vpn thing- he was a dear for that. weve had some virtual fun where we watch the same porno and then rate it- discussing the reasons for our rating- its a whole fun game and very enjoyable if any of ya'll wanna try it with your buddies. we havent exchanged any nudes- i never have and probably never will. it ruins the entire game. gotta keep em chasing. also, im above nudes. no offence to all the people who deal in nudes- its just not for me. i like to play with words. see how well and long i can fool them. thats my game.
id rather subtle seduce and play that the thing because theres only so much you can do in sex. ok add some more people, some toys and fancy contraptions and you got a little spice. but thats seemingly it. i mean dont get me wrong, i love a good orgasm anytime, but foreplay? or flirting to put lightly? oof- makes me warm and fuzzy just thinking about it. now thats exciting. and a good seducer knows how to be subtle but powerful.
Lol this is probably a good time for a disclaimer:
KIDS DONT TRY THIS AT HOME. Lmao i dont wanna get in trouble for this.
anywho, youre wondering why im calling you all kevin "kids" well, anyone who im not interested in is a kid to me. even if theyre older. heck Pod is 18 and ill call him grandpa, but thats only cuz the annoying ass calls me a kid. so why do i lead Kevin on and make him think were friends with benefits and let him jerk off to fantasies of me? oh yea- a while ago he told me he jerks off to my fantasies and i have never been so flattered in my life. thinking "oh my god what a whore?" oh please i havent even had sex yet- i mean i want to and i cant fuckin wait, but i havent gotten a chance yet.
so yea why i lead kevin on is because its fun and its mutually beneficial, be both have an understanding, we dont like feelings , or the crush shit. its casual. Virtual friends with benefits if you will. and its fun- makes me feel good about myself to know i can drive someone to that level- we'll technically... he isnt the only one lmao. but thats not for today. and like he said the sweetest thing yesterday. we were theorizing a plan of meeting if the chance presented itself (of course thats not gonna happen but eh, he doesnt know that.) so i play along and stuff stuff. and once i had told him my plan of getting a vibrator form this online shop i found but im broke and my family is all over the place like critters 24/7 so yay. and we were talking about jerking off and stuff and he said the sweetest thing that he would get the vibe for me.
i was so moved. but it cant happen cuz again- critters. and on that note i think were gonna end todays entry. ive already spent 45 mins on this and i have a shit load to do. marinade on the roach thing kay? and if you like what you read, Vote. bye.
