Life Of "A"

22-5-22 Dreams Log

Ive been having the weirdest dreams lately. ive noticed a pattern that when my reality is giving me shit usually my sleep takes it easy on me and does me a favor by being especially kind. so ive got 5 dreams lined up for today.

the first one was on 19th may and technically it was a nightmare because i watched Anabelle before going to sleep. and so i dreamt that i was in an inescapable room where the doors to long dark void hallways would open and close and i had no fucking what was in the dark in any of them. this is just a glimpse i remember . i have dutifully forgotten the rest.

then yesterday i dreamt that my window had an opening in the steel grate and that it was big enough for me to easily jump out of. i live on the first floor. so i lock my room dor, its night time btw, and i jump out and i run. i run and i revel in the feeling of freedom and carelessness. and i meet my friends or something? idk this pare is fuzzy. the scene suddenly changes and im now with my little brother on an island type beach. and were walking along a strip of sand right under the edge of a big rocky cliff. and further ahead i see washed up log/tree with seaweed hanging off it and stuff. and the log rolls over and theres a dead orca under it!??

th scene changes again when were suddenly at an ice-cream truck and im the server for some reason. its all foggy and i just remember this. then the scene changes once more and im in a swamp and theres another dead orca nearby for some reason. they must be baby ones because theyre not that huge. anyways i cant remember what happens next one bit. so thats gonna be the end of this dream

i just had yesterdays second dream in my head by its like someone picked it out and tossed it off into the horizon and now i have no clue what it was. so unfortunately neither of us will now know what it was.

but fear not because todays juicy dreams will make up for it. so i am kinda excited and also like squeal-y over this particular dream because it was my first romantic/sexual dream about a woman. now so far all the yummy dreams have been about men, but i was shocked at this coming at me out of nowhere.

so the dream starts of with this girl at our house. idk why shes there but in my dream i know her. she has medium long blonde hair, pale skin. bight eyes and a tight short black dress on. and really good curves in all the right places. idk if this is my brain making up something it knows i would like of if my brain is casually hinting its preference's to me but anyways. now this blonde has the audacity to tease me in front of my family. like shes in our living room  now, im standing nearby her and she is whispering sweet nothings to me regardless of the fact that my parents are right there and even though they are distracted in doing god knows what, they might hear her.

but she is good. almost as good as me. and ive had enough. i grab her arm and drag her to my room and lock the door. i do not care that ive been seen doing this. the second i turn around from the door, she attacks me. and i answer in kind and we end up against the edge of my bed. i could go on about what happened in the next few minutes and godddd was it fucking delicious. im gonna be discreet. before she and i can proceed further my parents start knocking at the door. and its a fucking problem because she and i are in no state to present ourselves.

so i manage to hide her and delay my parents by saying that im changing. which is dumb because they saw me bring her in with me. i quickly throw on my clothes ad open the door. they barge in asking whats going on and i pretend like theres nothing going on. and i do not remember the rest. i do remember distinctly thinking, "oh god they're not supposed to find out yet!!" because i havent and no not intend on telling them that i prefer girls as well, anytime soon. sorry but they have lost the privilege of my trust. and i absolutely do not trust them to act like sensible adults/parents upon finding out.

the second dream was fairly dull in contrast to this one but in it i was in a mall full of Christmas décor and music. there was this specific song playing that i have no idea about but i seemed to know it in the dream. and im there singing along and for some reason im gliding around effortlessly as if my chair had been properly oiled and grown feathers to be so smooth in moving. and it was honestly a blast in the moment. ik it doesnt sound as fun in words but you gotta picture it and feel it to get it. also i was for some reason doing magic?? like i was moving my hand around and golden dust made objects were forming and deforming. it was really weird. but hey when you have a reality as shitty as this, weird dreams are a blessing.

and yea thats it for the dreams long. im very fond on the blond dream but oh well.

-A