THUG LIFE

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Saturday, December 2oth, 12:34pm

Last night he told everything down to how they planned it and why and I couldn't say shit but torture his ass. But he ain dead yet. I wanted to torture him to death when I felt like he had enough. So Chris and Marcus takin turns to make sure he just alive enough to feel pain. They feedin his ass nothing but dog food and water every other day.

After dealing wit Tj sick twisted ass I came back to Promise and she seemed better than that morning. Her heart monitor didn't go off on me as much when I walked in. That made me feel better. I was crushed when she was scared of me, I never want her to be scared me. She going through enough with this but I wanted to tell her that we lost the baby but I ain want her to be even more depressed then she already was so I just want to wait.

I was sitting watching Promise go through her withdrawals. She was sweating so much and throwing up everything. The doctor said it would last only today since in the time span that they forced her to take it was only a week and not years worth. Ever since last night this been happening. I finally convinced her to eat but now she couldn't keep nothing down. She started shaking so I walked over to her and put more blankets on her.

Her heart monitor started beeping like crazy but I didn't care. I felt her head it was cold but she was sweating. The only time I seen this happen was my step pops so I ain really know what to do. I clicked her button for a nurse to come and I climbed in the bed and laid her head on my chest and get her temperature up. She silently cried while she just kept shaking violently

"Is everything okay?" Alicia came in quickly.

"She need a Gatorade and some fruit" I said

"I'll bring that right away" she walked to the door

"And can you turn off the lights?" I said and Promise started shaking her head

"no darkness " I looked down at her and I seen nothing but fear.

"The lights is what's makin yo head hurt"
She looked over at the nurse and nodded her head.

"I'll only dimmed them for you" she said and she did. Promise wrapped her arms around me tightly and we just sat in silence.

The nurse came back in and gave me the Gatorade and A cup of fruit. I sat up a little and opened it for her.

"Drink this" she opened her mouth a little and took a sip. I sat it next to the bed and opened the fruit. I picked up a pineapple and put it to her mouth.

"I'm scared to throw up"

"You won't throw up this I promise"

She looked at for a minute contemplating and opened her mouth. I fed her a few pieces and she didn't want anymore. We sat in silence while she kept sweating and shakin, a little more than usual thou.

"Here this probably will help" I picked up my phone and played some music for her. I put it on shuffle and was about to sing to her but I heard her say something.

"Huh?" I turned down my phone and she looked up at me crying.

"I'm sorry"

"Whatchu apologizing for?" I looked down at her and wiped her tears

"All of this is my fault"