THUG LIFE

47

Monday, 3:34pm

Last night was the best night in a long time for me and I could honestly say that I am kind of happy that I got out of my funk. I couldn't let that get me down for the rest of my life. Yes I am still hurt but I couldn't let him have that much control over me. Yes, I am still tired, yes I am still hurt, yes I am still scared but I have to smile and be thankful that I am still here, with the help of my family and my amazing boyfriend.

I slept good last night for the time in a very long time with August holding me in his arms. After I blew up on August and told him that I was scared of him, it was a weight that was lifted off of my shoulders. I spoke with my therapist and dear friend now about everything and she told me that that was my first step to healing and I feel pretty amazing about it.

I was laying in bed doing some work while August was downstairs. It wasn't as much considering they went on Christmas break a few days after I was gone. My head started hurting so it was definitely time for a break.

"Promise take yo medicine" august yelled.

I reached over in the nightstand and grabbed my pain pills. I wasn't in pain as much since my dissolvable stitches were almost gone. I took my medicine and decided to take a shower. August had made me eat a waffle just to put something on my stomach. I got up and went in the bathroom and started my shower. I stripped out of my pajamas and got in. I did my routine and got out and washed my face and brushed my teeth.

I walked out in the room and put on some shorts with my sports bra that Jayda had taylored for me. I went downstairs and in the kitchen to see August standing by the sink on his phone.

"Hey"

"Wassup" he said not taking his eyes off of his phone.

I went in the fridge and grabbed the apple juice and poured me a drink. I looked at him and seen he was staring at me but I didn't really care too much, he's been doing that since I've got out of the hospital.

"When does your family come?" I asked.

"Uh Friday"

"I can't wait to see them" I smiled and it got quiet. I finished my drink and looked up to see he was still staring. I followed his eyes and they were staring at my butt so I hit it shoulder.

"Damn what?" He rubbed his shoulder.

"Stop staring at my butt"

"I wasn't starin at yo ass"

"Yes you were" I pulled down my shorts a little.

"Ight Ight I was but I can't help it" he laughed and licked over his lips. I shook my head and playfully rolled my eyes.

"Mhmm what you got planned today?"

"Gotta do pick ups and that's it" he shrugged.

"How long that's gonna take?"

"Not long. Why?" I shrugged and put my dish in the sink.

"Just asking"

"Call yo friends over while I'm gone"

"Can't I just go with you?" I pouted and he shook his head.