A complicated life

Stitches and shifts

Meanwhile:

Siyeons pov:

The black wolf knew all to well where Y/n was right now. It bothered her. The other woman will probably spend the whole night drinking, like she could wash her problems away like that. Siyeon understood Y/n struggles.

"As long as she is not ending up in another womans bed, I'm okey." Siyeon thought and looked at the ceiling.

She had no right to get jealous. They were not dating, but everytime Y/n looked at another woman, Siyeon got mad. Of course Y/n slept with other woman besides Siyeon and it hurted to know that. The black wolf wanted Y/n for herself.

"Why do I even care so much about her. She already let my know that she is not intrested in a relationship with me." Siyeon mumbled.

The other underboss always had ignored the hints Siyeon had given her. It was hard for Siyeon to be so close to her and yet so far away. Her throat  was dry and she decided to get herself some water. Arrived in the bathroom, she filled a glass with water. The clear liquid was swollowed quickly and Siyeon faced the mirror.The wolf was only wearing a tanktop over her underwear. She layed eyes on the long scar on her face and body.

"Y/n could never love a face like this and the only one that could is long gone." Siyeon thought.

Her thoughts wandered to the day, when it had happen. She got reminded of the pain she had felt. Not only because of the wound, no also the pain being betrayed by someone she had loved.

Her ex-lovers face poped up in her mind and she tried to ignore it. Siyeon still had feelings for that woman, but she would never admit it. It was true that Y/ n was her crush, but the other woman was the love of her life. The love that turned out to be wrong.

"Why did you have done this? Why did you try to kill me?" Siyeon talked with the mirror, as her fingers slowly run along her scar.

She hated it. It was long and ugly. Siyeon felt to embarrassed to show it to anyone. Only Y/n had saw all of it. The others only saw a tiny bit because she usually covered it with a scarfe. Everyone from the underground thought that Siyeon was dead, including her ex-lover. Only  the organisation she worked for knew about her still existing. Siyeon liked it better thet way. Of course she could get out and yell that she was still alive, but what for? Nobody would care about it anyway and she hoped to make her ex-lover feel grief because of it.

"Fuck." Siyeon cursed, as she grabbed the sink with both hands.

Tears were in her eyes and she trembled a little. The memory of her ex-lover just didn't wanted to leave her mind. All the happy moments they had spend together roamed around in Siyeons head. Tears streamed down her face and her heart ached. She still could feel the betrayal of that day. The pain she had felt that moment when the other woman showed her true face.

"Why do I still feel this way after all those years?" Siyeon thought.

Her sadness slowly turned into anger.

"She betrayed you. Stop thinking about her, she is not worth it. She is not worth anything." The black wolf whispered angrily.

She looked at her own face in the mirror. Her eyes slowly followed the scar down to her chest.

"I fucking hate that bitch." Siyeon said and punched the mirror.

The glass shattered and cut open Siyeons hand. A small chuckled left the wolfs mouth, as she watched the blood run down her hand. The floor was covered with pieces of glass, as Siyeon walked out of the bathroom. She opened a drawer and pulled a bandage out. It was wrapped around her hand swiftly.