Owning Her [Side Story]

Kabanata 12

AERIN

I feel awful, she's avoiding me. I know, I can see and feel that. She's too cold, to stoic and heck, her stern voice is turning me on.

This is bad.

This is not so me. Kahit ako naninibago sa sarili ko, who the heck is she to do this to me? I'm Aerin Phariah Quinn, and she has the audacity to turned me down, again and again and again.

Tapos ngayon she's making me feel like I'm the most evil villain on her own love story. Oh-- wait, remove the love. Just put a story. Walang magaganap na love story hangga't hindi nya ako nagugustuhan.

I frustratingly run my fingers through my hair. I'm in my office, I'm loaded with paper works and meetings, yet here I am. Thinking how should I make it up to her.

I know it's wrong, saying that she has no means to--fvck. Why did I even say that? Nababaliw na ba ako?

She's doing great. She's doing everything for her family tapos sasabihin ko iyon?

Ang bobo ko.

Dapat lang ito sa'kin. She has the right to get mad at me, to not talk to me, to be casual, but it's hurting me.

I want her attention, I'm craving for her kisses. Gusto ko na ulit mahalikan sya.

I thought after the korea incident things will be better, but I got busy and she had learned about the pampering thingy.

Tapos ayun...

Nagalit sa'kin.

Hindi na ako pinapansin.

I'm sad.

I don't wanna live anymore, I badly wanna die.

Just kidding, the world still needs me and of course I'm too beautiful to die. Yah' know, my plan is still on going. And that is to seduce that woman.

I sigh before looking at my fountain pen.

I sign the paper in front of me without even reading it, wala ako sa sarili. I can still remember how she told me that my body isn't turning her on.

Man. My ego.

It hurts.

Pero mas malala naman yung sinabihan nya ako na hindi nya ako mahal.

Does she really need to be that straight forward?

"Ma'am?" I got startled. It took me a second before regaining my composure.

"Brenda.." I huffed.

"Ma'am?"

"I'll give you 500 thousand right here, right now. How 'bout that? I don't care what you'll do with the money, travel, give it to your family, just don't show your fucking face for 1 fucking month before I could stab you using this fvcking fountain pen of mine. Sounds fvcking great, isn't?"

Sunod sunod ang pinakawalan kong pag buntong hininga at saka padabog na ibinaba ang hawak na papel.

"E-h ma'am, sasabihin ko l-lang po sana na ano.."

"What?"

"Yung ano po k-kasi.. yung papel?"

"Ano sa papel? Naging puno ulit?" Asar kong tanong.

"Eh Kasi ma'am, bakit nyo naman po pinirmahan ng hindi binabasa, malulugi ang company ng dahil sayo. Salary Raise Proposal po yan e. Ano ma'am? Tataas ng sahod kahit katataas lang last year? Tataas ng sahod kahit hindi nagtataas yung sale ng company? Tataas ng sahod kahit na  hindi tumataas yung ranking--ay mali, nangunguna pala tayo. Pero ma'am naman kasi, basahin nyo naman yung pinapasa ko sa inyo. Na review ko na po iyan, hindi ko na sana ibibigay kasi mataas na talaga yung sahod nila pero gusto nilang taasan pa, tapos ikaw naman na lutang at sabog, pinirmahan."