Fighting For Eachother

good time

As I was waiting I couldn't actually believe that I'm having friends. Like, good friends. I can't believe that they accepted me and we clicked in the second.

I really appreciate it and I'm just- so happy about it. Although, I hate myself for having thoughts that are : maybe they are just joking
maybe they'll just make fun of you
you don't deserve them
your disgusting

Etc.

I hate that I can't be happy for a second. I ALWAYS need to have bad thoughts and flashbacks. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I'm so sick of it.

I heared car horn and I look at it and I see Ria with smile on her face and waving out of the window

I ran to the car and got in

Ria turned around and hugged me
"Hey babe!!" She said and James also said hi to me

"I'm sorry your sitting besides him but we'll pick up Mason now so he will sit in the middle" she said and explain and I only smiled

I can't believe that on this earth is actually existing angel like her. She's full of understanding and just has that - good vibe.

"It's okay I don't mind really." I said and James speed up that car like shaked idk how to explain it, but like the car went back and then forth with speed

My body hit the seat and I cursed myself for not buckling up

"James, dude don't do that she wasn't buckled up." Kayden said, what "And anyway, why didn't you buckled yourself up? You can't just get in the car and not buckle up yourself" he said and then he buckled me up

"Sorry" I whispered. Good job Anastasia, you just need to cause more problems don't you? What the fuck is wrong with you?

Ria was yelling at James but this time he didn't laugh, he actually apologized and was sorry

The car was quite after that and I could feel the tension. I am actually sorry. What the fuck am I doing?

"Okay anyways. How have you been Stas? Were you- are you okay?" Ria asked as she turned to see me and gave James look to not drive fast

"Em yea-yeah. I was and I am okay, thank you for askinggg!! Why?" I asked and she shrugged

"Idk it's just that- okay I'll tell you." She sighed and looked at Kayden and then looked at me in the second, like she didn't want to change her mind
"The day you went out of doctors- those people that were showing you into the car- I was worried and we asked doctor for your address..." She stoped and I didn't said anything, continue?

"Um then me and Kayden- beacuse he suddenly appeared- drived off to your house and your- mom? Didn't let us in when we said we needed you. It's just- if you are in danger you would tell me .. right?" She said and asked

Oh god oh god oh god.
Oh. God.

They know where I'm living. They saw her. She knows I have friends that know where I live.

Somebody will laugh at me if they can read my mind and my thoughts but I will -and I kind of did- get in danger. My parents will think I will tell my friends everything and that I will ask for help and disappear.

I mean, I want to do that. For sure. But they will burn me. And I'm not even joking.

Flashback few years earlier

I thought my parents will come at eleven o'clock, but they're already here. My friends left when my parents came. And it's only nine.

"Who the fuck were those people?"