Fighting For Eachother

morning

TW: at the end of the chapter, there are mentions of some hurtfully thoughts like drugs, suicide etc

Anastasia's pov: morning

I woke up without my comfort. Where is he? I groaned and looked at the time on my phone, 8:47 it read

Amazing. Just amazing.

"Oh fuck off" I said when I noticed that ballet messaged me. I can't deal with them now. I need to block that number.

Just when I was about to call his name, I heard him talking but I couldn't see him

He was probably talking on the phone with someone outside of the room or in the bathroom. But I wasn't really focused on that, I was focused on what he was saying and I think it slowly killed me

"She's just so fucking annoying God. Can't she stop? Oh My God. I fucking hate her. She's so fucking annoying "

I don't know if he's talking about me, but what else should I think?

"God! And her fucking addiction! If only I could fucking leave her alone, but she doesn't seems to work without me. Fucking pathetic. And then she calls or talks to me like I love her, Like I'm okay with what she's doing. Too bad I don't love her "

I don't know with who was he talking to but I think I heard enough.

I feel like I will throw up any second now.

I also feel shattered.

How stupid was I? To think that someone will actually love me? Am I that fucking insane!??

Oh God, I hate myself. I hate myself even more. I fucking. Hate. My. Self.

How could I let someone get in my life and get attached to them? I told myself many times, that I won't.

I sighed and opened my closet and put hoodie on me because it's getting cold. Yeah I don't fucking now what's with the weather these days.

I looked into mirror in my room and I just sighed. I slept fucking great but now with what I heard I don't feel like that anymore and my eyes just falled like they used to back in days.

When I had nothing.

Nothing to look forward to.
Nothing to smile at.
Nothing to laugh at.
Nothing to be happy at.

No one to love.

I scoffed and walked out of my room, shutting the doors behind me harsh out of anger

"Sorry" I mumbled and I stoped in my tracks. I just apologized to fucking doors.

I really am getting insane.

I rolled my eyes at myself and everything around me right now and got into the living room

Everyone was here except Laura and fucking him.

"Morning" I mumured to Ria, I don't want to be rude to her at least. She turned around in the kitchen as she was doing breakfast and smiled at me

"Good mor-!" She stoped when she saw my face

"God are you okay?" She whispered and I looked at James and Mason who were watching TV

I walked over Ria and shook my head and put my head on her shoulder

She rubbed my back and told me "It will be alright. What happened? Who should I kill?" And I smiled

I looked at her and shrugged "I don't fucking now. I really don't" I said and ate a little bit of eggs she was making