Fighting For Eachother

it hurts

Kayden's pov:

I hate myself.
Why the fuck did I said those things? Beacuse I knew if she hates me, she logically won't love me and won't be attached to me.

And then I won't hurt her when I die.

Even though I definitely hurt her now. I'm so fucking stupid.

And that on call, it- it wasn't about fucking her. Why would she think that!? I would never say she's pathetic and other things!

I was having call with my cousin about my fucking mom.

She's addict and she abused me and my brother before. She cant do that anymore. I also don't live with her anymore. I'm not talking to her.

She fucking thinks everything is fine with us but it's not.

I wasn't talking about My Angel. I was talking about my fucking mother.

I fucked up. I know.

I really fucked up.

Everything I said to her was mistake. She will never ever forgive me. Hell, I won't forgive myself.

And now I can't even be with her. It's been three days. She didn't called didn't texted. I didn't eather.

Fuck this is so hard.
But I just don't want her to be so sad when I go. I'm doing this for her.

Fuck.

Anastasia's pov:

It's been three days. Three days that I spend in my room. Not letting anyone in except Ria sometimes.

Three days since we didn't talked and saw eachother.He didn't called or texted. Neither did I. If I'm so annoying to him, I don't need to text him.

I don't care.

Okay, bullshit. I do care. And that's what hurts the fucking most. Beacuse I do fucking care.

I knew love doesn't exist. I knew.
And I let myself fall in love with him.

I screamed in my pillow.

Third person pov:
It's been three days.
Neither of them called or texted. They both acted like they didn't cared. They knew they did care in fact.

Stasia spend the most of her days laying in bed and just looking at one side of the wall. Nothing else.

She was hurt. It was obvious.

Ria tried to get her out of her room but Stasia didn't want to. Ria was there for her, Stasia told her all.

And it's just messed up. It's all just messed up.

And when she thought her life was finally good, she needs to hear him talking on his phone. But about his mom, not her. But she doesn't knows that.

And she won't even think about it. Beacuse then he said those things to her. Which he didn't meant.

But how could she know?

Anastasia's pov:

"I don't want to" I groaned at Ria

"Oh shut up!" She groaned but I only pulled my head in my pillow further "I don't want to see my best friend being hurt and closed in her room 24/7! You will get up. Shower. Eat. And we'll go for a ride" she said and I groaned

I know that I can't argue with her "Fine!" I groaned and cried out, I really really don't want to

"Chop chop! Get in the showed first please. " She said and pulled her nose with her finger like I stink and i gasp at her

"You...evil!" I laughed so hard at her and she run away and I shook my head

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"Now you will explain me why the fuck are you in your room for days."

I shook my head "I told you"

"No. You didn't. You didn't told me why are you in your room 24/7"

I sighed "Beacuseofhim" I mumured and she slightly smiled

"What? I didn't heard you"

"Beacuse of him. I don't know!" First part I whispered but second I didn't

I really don't know. I really shouldn't be hurt. Right?

"Ah-ah-ah. Listen you little star. I'm not letting any fucking guy to fuck up with you. And I'm not letting him do that either. Listen. I've been friends with Kayden for more than ten years. I don't know but the point is, I know him. And I never saw him this happy.

I know that this couldn't be fake. And I'm going to find out what the fuck is wrong with him. You two need to talk. You need to clean things up.

I'm 100% sure he didn't mean any of what he said, beacuse I saw his face when you walk in the room. He regrets every.word.he said to you then.

And also, I never saw you that happy. When you two are around eachother we can all see that y'all are in love. So don't give me this bullshit. You two will clean things up."

Maybe she's right.

Or maybe not.

But when was she ever wrong? I nodded "okay, I'll see"

"What? You'll see?"

"Yeah. I don't need to call him every time. Why doesn't he call me?"

"Hm your right. Okay well, we'll see. Call him whenever you want, if you feel like it." She said and I laugh and nodded

"What are you laughing at dumbass" she said as she laughs too, I put my hand in popcorns we had and wanted to-

"Don't. Don't even think about it." She said but I however 'punched' her with popcorns

"Girls. What is going on here?" Laura came in Ria's room or our room, and laughed at us and we simply smiled at her

I love this women.

"Chilling...?" I said but it sounded more like a question

"Sort of" I added and she looked at me suspiciously

"Okay well.. I'm sorry to ruin the mood but I need to talk to you Stasia. It's about guardianship and your house" she said and I sat on the bed and nodded, letting her continue

She came into the room and sat on the bed too

"You told me what happened and I told you that I can give you guardianship. But...."

"I don't know how to tell you this... Your parents weren't really your parents."

Hold up.
Hold up.

"What!?" Ria and I said and Laura nodded for our reaction I guess

"They were your foster parents." She sighed and looked at me sadly "Your real parents are now...dead... But they weren't when you were little. They died when you had 15." She said and this was all shock to me

"B-but you can still have guardianship over me, right?"

"Yeah yeah. I will. I cleaned everything but I just needed to tell you that. Also, I  thought..if you are ready....to go to your old house and you can get everything from there. If you need or want to." She said and I thought about it

I thought out loud
"Well I'm not sure actually. Nothing from there gives me joy. Except my books there but I had bad memories so it's okay. I don't need anything. When I ran away I already had all money with me that I put half in my bank account. I also don't want their money. So I don't think they are any reasons to go there." I said and she nodded

"Okay. I'm sorry for ruining the mood" she said and kissed Ria on cheek and hugged me

"Stay safe girls, I need to go. I love you" she said and we yelled that we love her too

"Damn. That's...much" ria said and I agreed

"Should we go for a ride? " I asked and she smiled, "let's go" was her answer

My foster parents? Why is my life only getting more and more fucked up?