Fighting For Eachother

extra (sad) chapter

Don't read this if you don't want to cry anymore. This is about Ria and Stasia. Also, this isn't really good wroted or whatever

Ria's pov:

It's the day of Stasia's and Kayden's funeral I cried the whole night and day yesterday, I'm crying yet again. I got a white rabbit that I named Star, she came to me just the night when Stasia died, my Star. So I named her Star, also Star once told me that when she died she will come as a white little rabbit to me, and look. She is here.

Tears falled down my eyes,I just can't be okay with the thought that they're not here anymore. They can't come back. I'm missing them so much. She was everything to me. Everything. She was the first person that made me feel okay about being myself and to do what I want.

She was always there for me. Always. On my bad and good days. She was always there for me and she never walked away.

She helped me about everything. She even put my name under her money that she had left.

She left everything to me. The letter she wrote me the night she tried to kill herself, I put besides my bed and I framed it. I don't want to lost it.

I spend almost every night looking at it and our pictures and videos. She definitely doesn't want me to be sad about it, every day and night but what can I do? What else can I fucking do?

Nothing.

Can I hug her? No. Can I tell her that I love her? Not really.

I miss her so much. I miss her voice, her laugh, her constant curses that some didn't even make sense.

I laughed at the thought.

I miss everything from her. And today I will talk on her funeral. And Kayden's. And we need to dress into fucking white beacuse she told me to, on one of our sleepovers.

"Fuck you Star" I said as I dressed into white suit and put necklace of Rose quartz and it had a star on it, for her, out of my white shirt so it could be seen.

I'm not taking this neckless off. I never did. She gave me on one of our sleepovers, she said that it might be cringe but she doesn't know when she will die and that she wants me to have it beacuse she knew that I will miss her.

She was an overthinker but sometimes I'm glad for it beacuse otherwise I wouldn't have it. I looked at the time on my phone to see what time is, it doesn't matter what time it is but it matters my wallpaper. It was her,me,kayden and james at the beach. Although the picture was black and white.

I put a silver bag on my arm and silver heels, when I was done I looked at the wall infront of me. They're were Polaroid pictures, pictures of disposable camera and pictures from our phones, the pictures were of us. All together or just me with her. I also printed few pictures of her and Kayden I found in her gallery.

Yes, her phone went to me and she told me that I can go through everything and into voice record app mostly and importantly.

I don't want to listen to the records again, beacuse I will cry again but she had multiple records about me. Where she was saying how much I meant for her and how much she loves me. Etc.

I removed the tear that falled down my eye. It's really fucking hard Star. I miss you so much.

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