𝙾𝚞𝚛 𝙵𝚘𝚛𝚋𝚒𝚍𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 [ C̶y̶n̶t̶h̶i̶a̶ X̶ A̶s̶h̶ X Astrid ]

ACT 43 | RECOIL

"Guns don't kill people.. They do it themselves.."
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They had kissed... It was a dream he had.. A dream that made him realise how infuriated he was with her, how much he loved her... He could vividly point out every small detail of that dream.. Her eyes showing guilt, her blonde hair falling onto his face, a small tear drop crashing onto his face.. Every single fucking detail of it...

They were in her apartment after watching movie.. The end credits rolled and he couldn't fall asleep.. She slowly pulled his head away placing it over her lap looking at him.. Her hand running over his cheek.. He recalled seeing her determined yet broken face in that dream... And then she whispered something... "I am sorry.."

He remembered the taste of her lips.. Despite being a dream it felt so real.. She was so close to him.. Her grey eyes closing down leaning onto him placing her hand between his and her lips.. Their nose brushing against each other.. Her head onto his and then her two fingers slowly slid apart...

He felt those... He was sure she felt them too.. At least in the dream.. He wasn't the only one to feel those feelings and neither was she.. She pulled away with teary eyes mumbling a apology over and over as long as she could remember and then she was gone... He followed her running out following her running down the stairs but the stairs never ended.. He always end up losing her and the dream ends with him losing her..

With his head against the window of the car, tears rolling down his cheeks he clutched the bracelet tightly... The third time he cried driving past her apartment... It hurted.. Every single thing that reminded him of her.. He wanted to do a lot but never did.. Being aware of her being a adult and him being just a kid in her eyes, he never did things he would have...

Those dreams were starting to haunt him now... It wasn't him in those dreams now... He just stood there helplessly watching her for the last two days... The way his mental health was detoriating was a matter of concern... Helplessly rubbing his eyes remembering those dreams, he couldn't even sleep...

"Ash, you there?" A voice from the call holder on his car drew his attention.. He steered the car violently.. The yellow camero drove through the city breaking past any rules in the middle of the night to who knows where.. He just wanted to get away from that place..

"Yeah.." He said.. A small sniffle escaped his nose.. He drove right out of the city breaking the speed limit.. Astrid looked at her device and then at the omnious weather outside hoping for him to be fine... Gaze falling onto her device, she asked him where he was.. He himself didn't knew... He just drove..

"So have you decided what do you want to do?"

Ash used to laugh at people who would say about things like heartbreak, love and stuff.. He remembered teasing Gary to no end after he failed to score a date and his stupid explanation of how his every love was a serious love laughing his ass off but now that he imagined himself in that position.. It fucking hurted...