Convicted Innocence (1)

Filler

"Mommy! I had the present already." Yeshaya Zoielle Antoine. The youngest.

"Mommy, let's go." Ngumiti ako sa panganay namin.

"Love!" Kahit kailan talaga ang ingay niya.

"Amaiah, love. Come here." Napaikot ako ng mata. Kahit kailan talaga.

"Who's Amaiah?" Napanguso lang ito bago ako niyakap at hinalikan sa noo.

"Shut up." I smacked this stupid head and rolled my eyes before sitting down.

"How are you, my love?" Nakangiting saad ko habang hinahaplos ang mukha niyang nakangiti. Ganda mo talaga.

"I miss you. Paramdam ka naman." Natawa ako when I felt the air embrace my shoulder. I love you, Amyeille ko.

"Miss mo ako?" Natatawang tanong ko at mas lumamig ang hangin. I caressed her name who was neatly placed on her plate. Happy 10th anniversary in heaven my love.

"Love." Nag punas ako ng luha bago tumayo. Inaasar ka na naman, Amyeille.

"Amyeille, please visit your ugly brother later." I laughed when his face turned pale.

"Alam mo Yangyang ang pangit mo ka bonding." Irap nito bago sumali sa mga bata.

Parang kailan lang mahal. Nakakainis ka! Should I read your letter here? I haven't read it because I can't, Amyeille. Hindi ko kaya but I slowly took the paper from my bag. I cried as I held it to my chest. I miss you so much.

I smiled when I opened the first fold. You used to be envious of my writing but I was more envious of your penmanship especially when it's for me because you used to double the effort.

Dearest Yshmael,

Hi? Joke! I still remember the first time I met you. I already said to you that from that day, ikaw na. Hello again, my love. I can't believe I may not be able to say this personally. You know how much I love you, right? That I can't be mad because if I do? This means I broke my promise.

Hindi ko kayang tapusin, mahal. Nakakainis ka talaga.

Ikaw ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko. You made me feel loved. You made me feel I am worthy. You made me feel I am, me. I cannot thank you enough for the things you have done for me. Sinabi ko noon kung hindi ikaw, mamamatay na lang akong single but it didn't happen because you married me. Thank you for giving me your beautiful 'yes' when I kneeled and for your loving 'I do', mahal.

My vow is yours forever. Ikaw ang iibigin kahit hindi na ako. Ikaw ang pagsisilbihan kahit hindi mo na gusto. Ibibigay ko ang sarili ko sayo kasama ng pagtitiwala ko sa Panginoon at dahil yun ang aking pangako. Lagi mong tatandaan, hindi ka isang Amaiah lang. Dahil nasa likod mo ako tawagin mo lang ang pangalan ko, darating ang susuporta sa iyo.

Hindi ako galit. In fact, I am happy. Thank you for letting me experience how it feels like to be married to someone you love. You gave me such a wonderful family. Kung kasalanan ang pagiging mabait tiyak habang buhay na akong nakakulong. Char. Sa bawat pagpatak ng ulan ay ang pag-iyak ng ulap kasi nadagdagan na naman ang mga magaganda sa mundong ibabaw.

I forgive you. Mahal kita hindi dahil mahal kita. I love you because you are all to me, Ysh. Hindi ko magawang magalit dahil ang taong dapat kung bigyan ng galit ay binigyan ako ng dalawang anghel. The little bean is surely lucky to have you as a mother. We are lucky to have you as our loving mommy.

Love, kung si Kuya ang gusto mo. I already signed the divorce paper, just asked for it from my lawyer. I am willing to let you go because I love you and one of my priorities as a lover is your happiness.