Love is such a complicated word with a lot of different types and multiple meanings. And what more if it will be connected to a person. Throughout dinner, Taehyung can't keep himself from observing Jungkook closely. He would follow every move of the younger man and he would absorb all of his words. He wanted to understand what it is that he really felt for Jungkook. How he wished he could pull all of his conflicting thoughts and emotions then observe it under a microscope. Or use a pensieve like how Dumbledore did in Harry Potter series but instead of memories he would use his emotions. He doesn't want to be careless with Jungkook because even if he can't say that what he feels for the younger is love, Taehyung knows himself that he cares about Jungkook.
"My brother might melt if you keep looking at him like that," Namjoon unceremoniously interrupted Taehyung's intense observation of Jungkook. "Oh, I wasn't aware of my actions PDnim," Taehyung bowed hurriedly while scratching his neck, a habit that he unconsciously does when he is nervous. "You don't have to be that formal with me Taehyungah. Just call me Namjoon hyung," Namjoon said while patting Taehyung's shoulder. Namjoon then looked in the direction where Taehyung was previously looking at before he interrupted the younger man and what he saw made him smile. Namjoon realized that from Taehyung's current position he could easily look at Jungkook who is animatedly talking with Jimin and Hobi. "You have been staring at Kookie the whole night and it's more than what you did during the day. Did something happen between the two of you?" Namjoon can't help but ask. He can't help himself from being concerned especially since the one involved is his precious little brother.
Taehyung did not immediately answer Namjoon's question not because he is not planning to answer it but just because he doesn't know how to put his thoughts into words. Taehyung can only sigh in frustration because he finds himself ironic since one of the basic skills he learned at his drama class is how to communicate clearly which he is now failing miserably. Namjoon has seen Taehyung's frustration easily since the younger man did not even try to mask his emotions so to help, he steered the younger man towards one of his favorite flower beds in their garden while saying, "You can tell me anything Taehyungah without any worries. We can exchange confidences even if it has something to do with my brother. Or you can take this as me offering you a listening ear since I have observed that you are troubled the whole night."
"I'm just worried that I'll hurt Kookie even if it's unintentionally. Even if he said that he will be content even if I won't reciprocate his feelings for me, I can't still stop myself from worrying." Taehyung was not able to stop himself from sharing with Namjoon all the things that happened after he showed his surprise to Jungkook. He didn't even think about the possible reaction of the older man anymore because his only concern is to voice out his conflicting thoughts while hoping that somehow it would help him organize it. And while talking, Taehyung could really see that Namjoon is intently listening without any visible judgment on his eyes.
It took awhile before Namjoon could respond after hearing all the events that Taehyung had shared with him but he could understand clearly the two characters that are involved in the story. "Perhaps it would help if you would recall the play that you are currently participating in, Taehyungah. Remember that the play is actually about mine and Jungkook's parents. Can you recall for me the premise of the play? Surely it was shared to you by Jinnie," Namjoon softly asked.
"It's unconditional love, Namjoon hyung," Taehyung whispered. "That's exactly right. And Jungkook, as well as me, came from that. I was raised by parents who strongly believe in unconditional love, thus when my parents died I also tried my best to raise Kookie with the same beliefs. Yes, there may come a time that Kookie will get hurt because of your actions but you have to trust what my brother told you. When he told you that he will stay with you as long as you will allow him and in whatever kind of relationship you will define for him then believe that he would really do that. I know my brother really well not only because I raised him myself, but because we have the same outlook towards love. Your apprehensions are all valid but give yourself and Kookie time." Namjoon verbalized all his thoughts while looking directly at Taehyung's eyes and when he observed that there is uncertainty in the younger's eyes, he quickly added, "I'm not asking you to give Kookie time because I want you to try and develop feelings for him. Please don't misunderstand that I'm asking you to do that. What I am only suggesting is to give time to the both of you so that you'll see that Kookie can really do what he promised you. Only through time that you're willing to give, can Kookie prove to you that what he said is really true. Taehyungah, I can assure you that you could trust Kookie when he told you that you don't have to return his feelings and that he will remain as your friend."
"Thank you Namjoon hyung. Perhaps my apprehension also came from the fact that I was betrayed before by the same person that I gave my trust to. And also the fact that I really care about Kookie. I don't want to see him get hurt," Taehyung said and this time he was not aware that his gaze went back to Jungkook's direction again. "You know what Taehyungah?" Namjoon said to grab Taehyung's attention again. "What is it, Namjoon hyung?" "I really believe that Kookie already knows that you care about him and that you don't want to hurt him. And that in itself makes him happy already. Come on, let's go back to the group," Namjoon stated and started walking toward the pergola where the rest of the group were.
The rest of the night was spent finishing the movie series that they have started watching especially after everyone agreed to just sleep over at the Kim household. Taehyung was able to make a decision as well which he kept to himself for now. But he made sure to stick next to Jungkook's side the whole night hoping that the younger would feel that he is willing to stay.
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Borahae everyone. Good night.
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Notes and Doodles
FanfictionA shy person tried to cheer up the one he likes in the only way that he knows how. Leaving notes with doodles in his locker.
