Four Page Letters (TeacherxStudent)

Dear Rosalynn

My Dearest Rosalynn,

There simply aren't enough words to express how much I miss you. How the days seem longer, nights are harder and I dread waking in the morning. I'm counting the days until I'm back in your arms. But time is moving awfully slow.

I never thought that one person could consume my thoughts. To be honest, I never thought I'd even have someone to think about as often. But you, darling. You occupy my mind so much it pains me to think of anything else. How is that even possible? Sounds crazy, I know. But its true. You do impeccable things to me without even being in my presence. I miss looking into your eyes. Finding myself within them. I often wish I would have confessed my love for you sooner so that we could have spent more time together. Im sure had I done that you surely would have deemed me insane. So I guess things worked out in the end. I'm still really sorry about the situation we're in at the moment. How the shitty cards I was dealt have affected your hand as well. But I'm working on fixing everything and I promise once I'm done, we'll never be in this situation ever again.

I admit I don't know what Im going to do exactly. I've been pondering different scenarios and actions I could take. None of which seems enough. I find myself questioning whether or not I'm up for the challenge. Whether I'm strong enough mentally.. physically if need be. It keeps me up at night. Too often for my liking really. But Im determined if nothing else. Im tired also. That is my constant reminder. That gives me all the more strength to see this through. Knowing that Im simply tired. Tired of being hurt and abused by someone who is supposed to love me and take care of me. Supposed to be the only family I have left. Well to hell with that. I want nothing to do with her and I'll see my plan through no matter what it takes. I would much rather start my family anew. With you by my side.

I have to say I've been thinking heavily about the future. What it holds for us. I know you were a little uneasy with the mentioning of my plans for New York. It seems like something so big is happening to a love so new. So fresh. But I'm confident in us. I hope your trust in me never waivers. I'm sure we can do this. So being away from you now is great practice don't you think? I know everything will work in our favor. So enough of that for now.

It feels funny being back here. Writing letters to you like I used to so many years ago. Secretly admiring you. Expressing and confessing my love for a woman who seemed so far out of reach. So unattainable. Although circumstances are different, the message is still the same. And that is that I love you. The kind of love that gives me butterflies every day. That makes me put on a little more blush, dress a little more nicer. That makes me late to class as I walk slowly down the hall just to catch a glimpse of you. How do you manage to look effortlessly beautiful every. single. day. Its honestly not fair. How did I get so lucky?

You wouldn't believe me if I told you everything I want to do to you. Or let you do to me rather. How I miss the taste of you lingering on my lips well after I've devoured you. Savoring every drop you leave dripping down my chin. I miss being between your legs. Your eyes fixated on me as I lick you slowly and steadily. Hearing you utter the sweetest of curses while praising my growth and experience. I've been a good girl Ros. Yet I yearn for you to punish me. Lay me on my back as you crawl on top of me. Positioning yourself in a way that will bring pleasure to us both. As you rock back and forth. The faces you make. The eye rolling. Perhaps its the way you look into my eyes while uttering "fuck" that sends me over the edge all too soon. I should thank you for teaching me how to please you. Because now that I know, I will never stop.

Its gotten hot in here huh? You just dont know what you do to me. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. I always wanted to ask you if you believed in soul mates. Soul ties even? I cant help but feel that we were always meant to be together. Despite all odds. The love I have for you runs deep darling. I love you with my whole being— from the depths of my soul. It scares me sometimes and I wonder if Im being naive. Because I've never experienced any form of love before, and I'm giving my all to this. Am I being too vulnerable, too emotional? Is it weird or creepy? I don't know. I hope it doesn't scare you away.

Well, its been two long weeks since we've spoken verbally but I hope this letter finds you well. I hope you have been taking care of yourself. Know that I'm always thinking of you, love, and I cant wait for this all to be over. I thought I'd include a short poem for you. I should only hope it puts a smile on your face.

All my love,
-C

I love you
More than the distance between us
More than any obstacles thrown our way
Let my love keep you warm
When your bed is cold at night
Know that I'm there
In the down of your pillow
Caressing your cheek
Whispering in your ear
Darling, wait for me
Let my love envelop you
And hold you close
Hold you tight
And bring you comfort for the rest of your life