Four Page Letters (TeacherxStudent)

The Laura Thing-Pt 2

Rosalynn

"Wait, so what are you going to do once she leaves? Is long distance an option for you in all actuality?" I took a sip of wine from my glass as I thought. Elizabeth had been here for an hour or so, and we've been discussing my relationship since she walked through the door. It's been a while since we've gotten together to hang out. So, I've been filling her in on everything. Well, except the Laura thing.

"I suppose I don't really have a plan per se. It looks like long distance will be my reality, so I just have to prepare for that." The look on her face told me there was something she was holding back, something she wasn't saying. "What is it, Liz?" Her eyes roamed across my face before she responded. "I mean.. don't get me wrong. You know I'm team Charlotte one thousand percent. However, this is your first relationship after Jack and you've fallen so deep, so fast. And I know she feels the same but she's about to start a new life basically. New town, new faces. I just worry that you won't be able to take the distance. Things are going to change for the both of you. You jumped in this thing head first and were completely smitten. I don't want to see you get hurt Ros. Is this really end game for you?"

Elizabeth means no harm, I know. However, her words fall on deaf ears. Charlotte and I have had this conversation numerous times. So, I know what I'm in for. I can't fault her for worrying though. I sat back on the couch, pulling my legs underneath me. I took a sip before I spoke. "You may think this relationship progressed rather quickly, and in all honesty it certainly has. But to me it was perfect timing. So, it doesn't feel that way, really. When we're together time stands still. My world is calm. My mind is at ease. I couldn't have predicted the love I need and longed for would come to me in the form of an eighteen-year-old. Much less my student. But there she was. She's been a consistent force in my life. And she carries the strength of a category five hurricane. With the power to wash me away at any given time. But when the storm clears, I'd still be there waiting for her. And I'd let her take me out a thousand times again.

She does things to me Liz. Not only from a physical aspect. I .. I just wish you could be me for just a day. So, you could feel the numerous changes my heart goes through on a daily basis. How it pounds excessively when she walks into the room. How it flutters when she simply calls my name. The ache I feel the moment she tells me she has to leave. She loves me so deeply. So intensely, it sets my soul on fire and she is my only relief. I crave her from the very depth of my soul. I feel it in my bones. She makes my knees weak. God, there's something so beautiful about the way she places her hand on the small of my back that sends electric waves through my entire body. I waited so long for Jack to love me right, why should I prolong it when she has given me just what I needed from day one? So yeah, I may get lonely. The distance and time away will be tough, that I know for certain. But she is my person, Liz. If she said she was going to the moon I'd sleep outside every night just praying to be an inch closer to her. Because my home is wherever she is. I can't imagine my life without her, nor do I want to. I'd wait until the end of time. Besides, good sex like hers is hard to come by."

I finished with a smirk as I saw Liz wiping her eyes as she laughed. "Oh my God, way to ruin the moment." I joined her in laughing as I refilled my glass. "No seriously though. Please don't worry, I'm going to be fine. I'll keep myself busy. But yes, this is certainly end game for me. How lucky am I to be given a second chance at real, true love. This is it for me. I'm going to do all I can to make this work and every night I thank the heavens I have a partner who's willing to do the same." I traced the rim of my glass as images began to flood my mind of her. My darling girl. "Well, way to shut me up. I love your love Ros and I know it's real deal. And when the nights get colder I'm only a phone call away. I support you in this one hundred percent." She slid over and fell in my lap. "Ughh get off! I appreciate that, really. But can we pleaseeee talk about something else now!"

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"I did tell you that!" I spoke into the phone as I laid in bed video chatting with Charlotte. "No love, you've never told me Liz was bisexual. I definitely would've remembered that." I thought for a moment. "Didnt I tell you we met at a gay club? I could've sworn.. well regardless. Im not sharing anymore details with her. I think she gets off on it." Charlotte's laughter filled my room. "I'm sure you left nothing to the imagination." She spoke. "Anyways. I guess we will wait until tomorrow to talk about next steps? I mean with the house and everything." "Yeah. I can't believe this is happening. I'll meet with the buyers sometime in the future and I want you to be there also." I smiled at how she always includes me in every aspect of her life. "Of course I will honey. I can't wait for you to finally be home with me though. Your boxes are all over the garage and you need to get them sorted. I think I may just give you the entire dresser unless we go buy another." I rambled on. "Ros." "Hmm?" She had an anxious expression on her face. "I got a letter today. From NYU." I sat up in bed. "Really?! Why didn't you say anything before, babe. What did it say?" I asked. "I.. I haven't opened it. Too afraid of the possibility of rejection I suppose." "Do you want to open it now? With me here?" She shook her head. "Tomorrow. When I see you. I think I'll just let you open it. So you can soften the blow." She laughed nervously. It bothers me how lowly she thinks of herself. Charlotte is absolutely brilliant and I know it frightens her to have put all her eggs in one basket banking on this one school. "Charlie. You are the smartest most caring and creative individual I've ever met. You have to give yourself more credit, love. No matter what the outcome is, I will be in your corner and I support whatever decisions you make. I have the utmost confidence and faith in you. We'll face whatever obstacles together. Sunshine or rain. But I know you've already been accepted so theres really nothing to fear. And you know Im always right." I shrugged, hearing her laughter fill the room once again. "I dont know about always, but you certainly have your days." I rolled my eyes playfully. "Whatever. We'll deal with it tomorrow. What time are you coming over?" I asked, yawning. "Umm.. I guess just call me when you wake up and I'll head out. I'll let you sleep in. It's already after midnight, you should go to bed Ros." I am tired. The nap I took earlier did nothing for me. "I will. I am. I'll call you as soon as I wake up okay? Get some sleep too." "I will. Sweet dreams beautiful. I love you." "I love you more." She blew me a kiss through the phone before ending our call. I rolled over and plugged in my phone, setting it on the nightstand and turning off the light.