Powerless...

Chapter 25 - Flamed

I struggle in his arms as I tremble in fear. "This is not you." I wept. "You would have hurt me last night if you had wanted too, but why didn't you?"

Ieyasu gritted his teeth as he still had his arms enclosing my shaking body.

"You even bought me a gift, why?" I asked in between sob. "And you even safe me from being slayed by those guards? If you really hated me, you wouldn't have safe me.."

"You shouldn't have come.." he roared. "You should have just go. Go back to the shelter.."

"No, I'm not leaving without you.." I mutters. "I don't want you to get hurt in this senseless war."

"I will loose my senses if you keep on ranting like this.." he barks. "You don't have to bother about what I'm pursuing. From now on, my life got nothing to do with you anymore.."

"How could you say that? Your life might mean nothing to you but it means so much to us, all those younglings which have look highly upon you, how could you be so selfish as wanting to leave them hanging on with their tattered faith, praying and hoping for your return?" I snapped as I begins to feel enlivened with courage to spit out my thoughts..

"Things change now Princess.." he hissed.

"No, things don't change. You are.." I noun coldly. His gaze soften upon hearing those words.

"Why are you doing this Sephira?" He asked as his arms begins to tremble while he held my form still close to his front.

"Because I care about you.. I can't loose you like how I've lost Will.." my unthinkable words finally spill and so were my tears.

Ieyasu gently caresses my tears away from the side of my eyelid and then in a quick trance he released his grip and turn his back on me, "Please go back to the shelter.."

"Ieyasu.." I called out his name, again and again but he remained silence not even turning back to look at me.

I clench both my fist tightly to my side for I knew, he's not returning back with me. With a disheartening note, I stroll back to my horse which I've straddle not too far off from the woods and get back on it. From there, I could see Ieyasu was pacing back towards the chaotic mass, which miraculously had dimmed to a calmer tone.

It's pointless for me to be staying around with my heart in such disarray note. Without looking back towards him either, I get on my horse and trotted back to the shelter..

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The bright sky had transcend to the shade of honey, for the dusk will soon be touching in. I carry on my journey back to the shelter with despairing notion shrouding my soul.

I could almost feel myself still trembling with anguished and fear. That ransacking notion that had been cruelly thrown upon me before. My fear of losing another special someone is shredding my guts and my faith.

Killing my courage, diminishing my hope. Hope? Something that I've used to hold on to, till the tip of it, it felt like I'm holding on to a tip of a sharp blade, it's agonising and blistering hurtful.

As I was reaching to the closure of the shelter, suddenly I heard terrifying screamed and shouts. I hasten my ride and to my horror, the children's bunkers were on fire. The blaze was massive, engulfing almost entire of their homes. I hastily jumped off from my horse and dashed towards the remaining bunker which was still untouched by the flames. The dark orangey smoke were surrounding the sphere and so was the heat.

"Quick, everyone go to the open field now.." I cried as I hurdle myself into the bunker frantically grabbing and pulling the little ones out from their bed. Their eyes drew so much fear, the paling form could be read from their faces.

Few of our maids and the older children too had come to bring the younglings out to a safer spot.

"The classrooms. The books." Jumped my thoughts, as I senselessly had dash in further into the other corner of the shelter, where I would usually conduct my lessons there.

I could feel mild heat sipping through the walls. The dark smoke soon begins to surround the area. Without wasting another second, I took as many books and writing tools in my arms as I could, bringing them out from the room. I quickly passed them to one of the maid and instructed her to bring those things to the open field.

I was about to step back into the class but was halted by her, "Princess you shouldn't, please come with me, back to the field.."

"You go ahead, I'm bringing out few more books then I will head down there.." I said.

"But princess.." she cried worriedly.

"You go ahead, don't mind about me.." I exclaimed as I headed straight back into the room without turning back.

And true enough, I could see mild flame begin to be scattering upon the corners of the room. I'm not wasting anymore chances, as I quickly took few more books in my arms when suddenly a huge beam had become loosen in between the wall.

I wasn't quick enough to response and even to look up, when that huge beam had fallen directly on top of my body, wedging me, towards the floor.

Panicked run through my blood as I tried to pushed the beam off from my form but it was too heavy. The smoke and the fire had begin to engulf quicker than ever. My eyes widen in fear as I begin to feel choke and breathless.

My lungs were filled with those massive smoke, it's hurting me, tearing up my nerves, for each breath, I try to inhale. I coughed out more frantically now, and the heat had become unbearable. My eyes were blurred with tears as I continue to struggle in between the beam and the floor.

"Will..Will.." is all that I could muttered as my head begins to feel light but my lungs seems to feel heavy. "Will.." I felt numb..painless even.

And upon that despairing moment, I saw those pair of emeralds green eyes gazing worriedly at me. I heard my name being called and then stillness...