Better Than Drugs - Dabi x Reader

Chapter 32

Y/n's POV

Everything's so heavy. My eyes, my chest, my head. I feel like I can't breathe. I didn't want to move.

My head was so messy. The thoughts were screaming at me to get high again. The only thing I could hear in my ears was the sound of my heart pounding. It told me I was alive, but that's not what I wanted.

I opened my eyes slowly and I took a slow, deep breath. Bright red wings was the first thing that caught my attention. I quickly sat up and looked around the room. Zion was sitting in my desk chair, Hawks was sitting at the end of my bed, and Dabi was sitting right next to me.

I panicked and scooted back, falling off the bed. I quickly got up and opened my nightstand, looking for something. I pulled out a switchblade and flipped the knife out.

"Why the fuck are you in here?! Get out!!" I shouted, anger and fear coursing through me.

Everyone got defensive. Hawks lifted his hands up. Zion stood up from her chair and concern was written on her face. Dabi swung his legs off the bed and got closer to me, trying to get me to drop the knife.

"We're here to help you," Zion said gently.

"I don't give a fuck! Get the hell out of my room!" My body started shaking.

"My love, I need you to calm down," Dabi said, slowly reaching a hand out to me.

I backed away from him and slid against the wall to get away. The blood was rushing through my veins and my heart was beating so fast. My eyes switched from each person and I kept my guard up.

"You've been ignoring the people that care about you. We just want to help you, Y/n," Hawks said, being careful with his words.

"Then why the fuck is she here?!" I pointed the knife at Zion. "It makes no sense for her to be here!"

"Despite everything, I still care about you! You're still my best friend!" Zion barked.

"Oh please, spare me the bullshit! You just want to control me!" Anger was starting to course more through my veins while the fear was starting to subside. I'm sure that's not the case, though. I think I'm so angry that I'm blocking the fear.

"That's not true and you know that," Hawks cut in. "She was trying to protect you."

"She fucked up then! If she really was protecting me, I wouldn't be a fucking addict!" I argued.

"You did that to yourself, Y/n. Your brain is different than ours," Dabi said, standing up from the bed. "I know what you're going through."

"You don't know shit, Dabi! You don't know anything about what's going on in my brain!" I glared at the ravenet.

Next thing I knew, I was being pinned to the wall by feathers and I couldn't move. I screamed and struggled to get free, but they wouldn't budge. Dabi came up to me and grabbed the knife out of my hand. All I did was scream. Out of anger, confusion, fear, and pain.

"Y/n, calm down!" Hawks said as he tried to get me to stop.

"FUCK ALL OF YOU!! GET OUT OF MY LIFE!! I HATE YOU!!" I sobbed. Tears were spilling and my throat was hoarse.

No one said or did anything. They let me cry and scream. They let me say these things to them. My emotions were so intense. The only thought running through my head was:

I need to get high.

"Tell us where the drugs are," Zion said.

"Unlucky for me, I ran out! I took the last three pills this morning!" I spat.