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i lost you too - Kelly severide ⚠️

Summary: after shay's death, Kelly chose to deal with it by leaving. But how will he feel once he knows that his other best friend/ crush was damaged by this more than he expected

Trigger warning: death, grief - types of grieving methods that shouldn't be repeated

It had been months since the death of my best friend shay. She was everything to me. We had grew up together in kindergarten and since then we had both shared our want of becoming paramedics. So once we was both able to we trained and got a house together, got the job, luckily landing it in the same firehouse

We had then met our other roommate Kelly.

Since I had first met him I had been intrigued by him and shay knew that just by the way I looked at him

It soon became clear that we had an attraction towards each other and shay would do every thing she could to try and set us up. But alas I was too shy and Kelly didn't have the balls too so it ended up not happening. We just kept our love for each other painfully secret

It hurt how much I loved him, whenever he entered the room I would blush like a school girl and our conversations lasted hours, to where we would stay up all night just talking and laughing, much to shay's dismay when she's trying to sleep

I loved them both. Shay as a best friend and Kelly as more than

However when shay died we were both crushed. It mentally drained me to a point where I couldn't feel a thing.

I carried on going to work like normal, though all of firehouse 51 could tell I was no where near myself and it even got to a point where they got a psychiatrist to have to clear me in for work. Which didn't turn out like they'd hoped.

I was a great liar and played the roll of the happy, but sort of missed their friend role and the psychiatrist fell for it

Kelly couldn't take the death of shay either and he went off to god knows where and hasn't spoken to me since

It was shit.

I missed him like crazy, like he went the day shay died too

I can't help but hate him for going, I was hurting too. She was my best friend too and it pained me seeing him leave, especially without a goodbye

We could've mourned over the death of our friend together, but alas he thinks for himself and not about how his reactions could effect those around him

So it felt like it was my fault. I mean that's why Kelly left right? Because he didn't want to be around the girl that basically caused shay's death. All because i asked her to switch sides with me. It should've been me. And then shay would be here

Since the funeral, I had barely talked or did anything, not having any strength to do anything but carry on the dream of being a paramedic me and shay had, like a robot, day in day out

I would go to work. Not speak to anyone and just go to my bunk and read in between calls

It killed me to be in the repetitive cycle and not even talking to my friends at the firehouse. I hated it all

It had been a month since then. And I still hadn't heard for Kelly

Casey's POV

51 had all discussed time and time again about the well being of June. She wasn't the same anymore and we could all see it

She barely spoke unless she had too and would always go to her bunk where she would either sleep or read and we rarely saw her eat

We all loved her here and we hated seeing her like this