Unconditional Love (Wanda Maximoff X Fem Reader GiP)

Chapter 23

Y/N pov

I was sat on the sofa in my old apartment when Bucky let himself in. I kept my head down as I played with my fingers in my lap. 

"Are you fucking stupid Y/N?" He boomed as he slammed the door shut making me slowly lift my head up to look at him as he spoke. "Leaving Wanda alone like that. Going after Matthews. You could seriously get in some serious trouble with IA. (Internal Affairs) Especially for interfering in an ongoing case. I never thought you could be so stupid." 

"If you're only going to shout at me please leave through the way came in." I told him emotionlessly. He sighed as he sat beside me. 

"You need to try and fix things with Wanda. She misses you so much but she hates what you did. She needs you more than you know." He said as he rested his hand on my shoulder. I just nodded as I kept my eyes forward. 

"I don't know what to do Buck." I whispered as he gave me a sympathetic look. "She hates me. I hate me." I told him as he nodded listening to my every word. 

"You need to prove to her that you are sorry. Go for the meaningful gestures. Her favourite flowers. Favourite snacks and meals as she watches her favourite shows as she relaxes on the sofa. Massages and just being there. Be a shoulder that she can lean on. She went through something so traumatising and she needs her wife. The one person who can make her feel safe." He told me as I just nodded. He was right. I needed to do this. "Also talk to her. Open up yourself and prove to her that you are in this for the long haul." He finished as I nodded.

"You're right." I spoke as I stood up. "I am going to get my wife back. I am going to be the best partner she will ever have." I finished as he followed me to his feet. 

"Also don't mention about Matthews to anyone. Steve knows but he wants to protect you also. They will just rule it off as a gang activity." He reassured me as I nodded and walked out of the apartment with him. I drove to the nearest florist to buy the best bouquet of flowers I could. 

"Let me guess, trying to get some forgiveness." The lady stated as she wrapped the flowers in a pretty red ribbon. Red is Wanda's favourite colour.

"Is it that obvious?" I smiled shyly as she chuckled with a nod. 

"But I am sure that she will love these and it will open the door for the way to earning her forgiveness." She smiled as she rung them up for me to pay. 

"I really need her to forgive me because my life is meaningless without her." I told her as she just smiled at me.

"I think that if it is meant to be and you didn't cheat then you can always work on it. In the end it will be worth it if you see yourself still by her side in 50years time." She spoke softly as I just smiled and paid before I bid goodbye and drove to our house. When I had pulled up in the driveway, I noticed Nat and Maria's car was still there meaning they were both still here. As soon as I let myself in, I was met with a slap to my face. 

"You took you jolly good time!" Nat shouted at me. I just clenched my jaw because I deserved that. Hell I deserved more than that slap.

"I want to make it up to her. I want to apologise a million times on my knees until they become one with the floor and I can no longer use them. I just need to see her." I told her as she just gave me a soft smile. 

"You definitely took your time to come to your senses." Maria smirked as she held their daughter in her arms. "She's upstairs in your room." She nodded towards the stairs. As I walked up the stairs, I could feel my nerves going through the roof. I opened the door slowly to see her lay on the bed with tears streaming down her face. I stood at the foot of the bed holding the flowers. I waited for her to notice me. 

"What are you doing here?" She asked me bluntly as she sat up as good as she could with her stitches. 

"I'm here to apologise for being absent when you needed me the most. I'm not here to beg for forgiveness because what I did doesn't deserve it Wanda. I just want you to know how sorry I am." I told her softly as I placed the flowers on the bed beside her. 

"Why did you do it?" She asked me as she wiped her eyes. I remained on my feet unsure of what I should do.

"I hated that you had gotten hurt again because of me." I told her shamefully. She went to say something but I just shook my head. "I don't need you to say that this happening isn't my fault because truthfully it is my fault. It's all my fault. I let you into my life. I wanted to be in yours and this is the second time this has happened since we have been together so I stupidly thought that distancing myself and going after the guy who did this to you would make everything better but it didn't. Leaving your side to go and take down Matthews only made things between us worse." I told her as she watched my every move. "I did something that I am not proud of. I became the person The Boss wanted me to be and I hate myself for it and I don't blame you if you hate me." I took a deep breath before I continued. "I understand if you don't want to continue us and want a divorce. I won't stop you but if you want to work on it. I am willing to fight for us." 

"I don't want a divorce." She whispered hoarsely making me watch her every move. Every expression. "I hate what you did and how you handled things. I just want you to be by my side when I need you the most. I felt like I had lost my whole family and not just the baby that we didn't know about." She said as she cried. I went to move closer to her but I hesitated. 

"Do you want me to hold you?" I asked her not want to overstep. 

"Please." She cried as I lay beside her and held her in my arms. I just held her as she cried, and she cried hard. I wanted nothing more than to build a time machine and not be stupid and leave her but that is something that I couldn't do. Once she had fell asleep, I slipped from her grip and left the room. I was met with Nat and Maria in the living room as I walked to the kitchen for a drink. 

"You do know that you are an asshole." Nat shouted at me as I turned around and nodded at her. "You can't just leave her like that ever again Y/N. Because so help me god I will kick your ass to kingdom come." 

"I know I am an asshole. Hell that words to nice to describe me." I told her honestly as I poured myself another whiskey. "I know I am going to be making  this up to her forever." 

"So are you staying here?" Maria asked to try to avoid Nat going all kung fu on my ass. 

"I am. I'm going to be staying in the guest room. I already left her note." I told them as they nodded. Nat got their things together and bid their goodbyes before they left. I made sure that everywhere was locked up before I made my way to the guest bedroom to try to sleep. 

AN 

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