Unconditional Love (Wanda Maximoff X Fem Reader GiP)

Chapter 22

Y/N pov

After Nat had came and spoke to me, she sat with me for hours. I know that she only want what's best for Wanda and I. I am not ready to go home to her yet because I don't deserve her. So I am still sat here with Nat. 

"So what did you do?" She asked me as I got the both of us a beer. She took a sip of hers before she shook her head.

"You don't want to know." I told her. The way she looked at me was different, it was like she didn't know who I was. 

"I do. I need to know Y/N." She told me as I stood up.

"NO! You don't need to know." I shouted at her. "I done things. Bad things. I turned into the person that my father intended me to be. I am worse than him." I told her as she stepped forwards. "I don't deserve Wanda. She deserves someone who isn't a monster Nat. She deserves someone who isn't me." I told her as a tear fell from my eye. 

"Let her decide Y/N. She loves you so fucking much and she needs you right now. She needs her wife. I understand that you both have lost something that none of us will ever understand but she need you by her side. She was the one who was shot and quite frankly I don't care what you did to the guy who hurt her. He could be dead for all I care." She said as I looked away guiltily. "He is dead isn't he?" She asked me and I nodded. "Why didn't you let the police do their job?"

"I wanted to make sure that he would suffer how she suffered. Not once by his hand but twice." I told her angrily. "And none of this would have happened if she didn't continue to try to get to know  me when we were younger." 

"None of it is your fault." She said softly as I shook my head violently as the tears fell now, I was unable to keep them in. 

"It is. It is." I said as I started to get angry at myself. "IT IS ALL MY FAULT." I shouted as the apartment door swung open to reveal a very angry Wanda. 

"Carol told me you would be here." She spoke as she closed the door. She tried to approach me as I took a step back and I saw hurt flash across her face. "Why haven't you been to see me in weeks Y/N?" She asked me as I avoided her gaze. I was silent as she waited for my answer. I was ashamed of who I am right now. "LOOK AT ME!" She shouted and I looked in her eyes. 

"I don't deserve you." I whispered to her softly as she shook her head. 

"I needed you Y/N. I needed my wife and she isn't there for me. She wasn't the one to stay by my side throughout my stay in hospital. She wasn't the one to bring me home. She wasn't there." She spoke as she let her own tears fall. "I needed you and you weren't there Y/N. The one person who I always thought would never leave me." She whispered. 

"I'm sorry." I whispered as she just laughed and shook her head. "I am so fucking sorry Wanda. I want nothing more than to hold you in my arms but I can't." I cried as she watched me closely. "I don't deserve to breath the same air as you let alone at all. I don't deserve to be here before you." I told her as her lip trembled. "I have done things that you won't approve of. I am not the person we all thought I was. I am not worthy of you or the life we have together. I am not who I want to be anymore."

"Why?" She asked me. I looked at her confused. "Why did you go after him?" She whispered as she sat on the sofa, giving up on approaching me. 

"Because he almost took you from me and he took our child. I wanted him to feel your pain. He deserved to feel pain and the worst part was I enjoyed it. I enjoyed hurting him. How sick does that make me. I hurt him and left him for dead in an abandoned safe house. And I loved every moment of it." I told her as she just watched me. "I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't want to be this person that enjoys hurting others when they hurt you. You deserve to have someone better than me." I finished as she just glared at me before she stood up and left without saying anything. Nat gave me a sad look before she followed her out. Probably to take her home safe. I was angry at everything but mainly myself. I have hurt the one person that I never wanted to hurt in my life.

AN

Another chapter dudes. Do we think that Y/N can redeem herself and earn Wanda's forgiveness. Let me know what you guys think.