Unconditional Love (Wanda Maximoff X Fem Reader GiP)

Chapter 24

Time skip

Wanda's pov

Y/N and I have been working on us again. She still hasn't came to sleep in the same bed as me yet and I know she still blames herself for what happened. I still haven't been able to forgive her for leaving me to go after the guy who did this but I am working on it. I also managed to get a job at the local school in the village that we are living. I couldn't step foot in the old school because I was frightened that it would happen again. Y/N was all for me doing what I needed to do which I am thankful for. She has been working again on taking down The Widows along with Bucky and Steve. She has been telling me about her new partner John and I kind of feel uneasy about her working with a rookie but she claimed that they all need to start somewhere.

"Are you ready princess?" She asked through the bedroom door. It's like she's scared to come through the threshold. I opened the door and watched as she smiled at me. "Our appointment is in 15 minutes." She spoke softly as she held out her hand for me to take which I did. She opened the passenger door for me before she got in the drivers side. She drove to the counsellor's office and opened the door for me again. It was like we had just started to date all over again. We didn't need to wait long until we were called. 

"So how have you both been since we spoke last?" She asked as she looked between Y/N and I. 

"I've been good." Y/N nodded as she spoke. 

"It could be better." I told her as she looked at me.

"How so?" She asked as she got ready to take some notes. 

"It feels like we aren't married anymore. It feels like we have only just started dating. She won't even step foot into our bedroom." I spoke up as Y/N looked down shamefully. "I feel like she doesn't want to be there with me and that it is just out of sympathy because she blames herself."

"I do blame myself Wanda and I will continue to do so. It's not easy when I remember that day. How you looked with the blood seeping through your blouse. All of those kids were frightened that they had lost you too. All because of a man I once knew once upon a time." She told me as she turned to face me. "I am frightened to be near you because I can't lose you. I don't think I could survive a world were you are not in it. You are my world Wanda and if I have to protect you from myself then so be it. I will do just that." She spoke as I could see all of the emotions in her eyes. She had flashes of guilt, anger and sadness in them. And I know that these feelings are all aimed at herself. "I hate myself for what happened to you. This is the second time you got hurt because of me. The first time wasn't as hard for you because you had your family and we didn't lose our baby. This time we are married and we lost a life that we didn't know we had created together. We lost the future that we had wanted in the blink of an eye and that is all on me." She spoke as she stood up. I could see the despair she is in as we let her continue. "I am struggling with all of this. I have seen people get shot and killed almost all of my life but when it came to seeing you in that position, I wanted to die. I didn't want to see you hurt so badly."

"Well none of this is your fault. I don't blame you. I don't regret meeting you. I don't regret any decision that regards you. I am in love with you and I miss my wife, I just want her back." I told her tearily as she sat beside me. 

"I am here, I am not going anywhere. I have already made that mistake once and I am never going to do it again because you are my world Wanda. You are the one thing that had shone for me in this shitty dark world that we live in." She told me as I just smiled at her. "I love you so much Wanda that I think of you all of the damn time. I never want to see you hurt again." 

"I love you too." I whispered to her as she smiled before I reached for her face. I watched as she flinched away from my touch but she soon stopped and allowed me to caress her cheek. I have missed the feeling of her skin under my touch. I leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to her lips which she reciprocated. 

"Well I think that is all for today. Y/N, I need you to try to atleast step in side your room for this week and try to trust yourself more." The therapist spoke as Y/N just nodded. She helped me stand from my seat before we both bid our goodbye and left the room. That session was a lot and I could see the tiredness in Y/N's eyes as she opened the door for me again. I know that this is hard on her as much as it is me. I have been in her shoes when she was beaten really badly when we were in school before she went to live with Nat and her family. So I know how helpless it can make you feel. I know that she will get through this though because I know she is the strongest person I know and I am lucky to have her as my wife.

AN

They're both in couples therapy. Do you think that they can get over this little hump and be the couple they once were? Let me know what  you guys think.