Life After Rehab ✓

[Chapter Nine] Where The Nightmare Starts

Chapter Nine - Where The Nightmare Starts
Julian's Pov

January first the trailer for 'Endlessly' was released and it was a good trailer I was happy with it and Bailey was proud of me though they kept pushing and pushing for this song but I just didn't have it.

Bailey had gotten me new guitar picks for Christmas in hopes that it would bring some creativity but she also had told me that she was taking us to get couple pictures done before turning bright red and mumbling about how it was okay if I didn't want to.

I was more than okay with it and I loved her for the sweet gift.

Now January first was a good day, January second there was pictures of Kimberly and I and the one of Bailey and I side by side with some bullshit about who I was cheating on and if it was my child. There was another one with just me and theories on where I had been, rehab was the main guess and they were right.

Real smart people they are to guess that a year of absence meant rehab.

"I'm sorry." I had told her when I put them down, it had officially begun and the next day wasn't any better.

"On the plus side, did you hear the LA Galaxy snagged up Drew Chandler?" She asked putting a sports one down with him on the cover and there were pictures of Drew, Kenna and Micah on a walk.

"I don't know, Kenna's wearing a sweatshirt, she could be having a mental break down because of her cheating or gay husband and going through a rough patch." I said sounding as serious as I could and she laughed so hard I was worried about her breathing for a minute there.

"I don't know where people get that shit from." She managed to say and I laughed with her.

Sometimes a lazy day is a lazy day and we don't feel like getting dressed up, I'd say sue me but they probably would find a reason to.

"Because they need to make their lives more interesting?" I guessed and she shrugged

"I guess so. So are we ready for this?" she asked me suddenly looking very worried

"Nope, but we don't have a choice now. Want to go to dinner tomorrow?" I asked her and she sighed and looked down at her hands. I felt insanely guilty for putting this on her.

"I guess they already know about me, probably won't be long before they put two and two together, I've been out with Drew and Kenna and if they have that, they may have ones with me in it too." She was more than a bit annoyed and I didn't blame her, it was extremely aggravating sometimes.

"If we plan to stay together it's going to happen sometime, when you're comfortable you can come to set and see what I do." I'd love for her to be there.

"They'd probably blame me for you not having that song written, wasn't it supposed to be finished today?" She asked and I frowned, this damn song was kicking my ass.

"It was." I admitted

"And how far have you gotten?" she asked

"Not far." I hated this, I hated writing anything.

"Sing it for me." she said softly and I cringed.

"No." I couldn't look at her when I said it. She crawled into my lap, her knees on either side of my legs and she took my face in her hands to make me look at her, she tried being gentle about it but when I wouldn't look at her she made me.

"Sing it for me." her eyes looked straight into mine and her voice went soft.

"I can't, please don't make me do that." I begged her, I really wasn't ready