Wrong number (Wilbur x OC)

Chapter 29 - Blame Game

TW// Mentions of suicide

I watched days on end as Tommy laid in his hospital bed not making a sound. That was my punishment. Watching him suffer. It hurt seeing him laid out like that and not knowing how it even happened. Techno refused to tell me any details on what happened and whenever Tommy was being examined Techno forced me to leave the area where he was being displayed.

Since I'd arrived I hadn't heard much from Cassie. According to Techno she didn't even want to see me. I didn't really understand why she was so upset with me. I loved her. All this was for her. I'm here because of her. So why is she upset.

So when it was time for Tommy to be examined Techno made me exit the area. Instead of sitting alone in the void I decided to go locate Cassie. I needed to know why she was upset with me. I needed to.

I try looking where she normally is but it was completely empty besides some of her favorite belongings. I continued to watch until I finally hear her voice. She was...laughing. I follow the sound to another part of the void. There was another area with a screening. In front of it sat Cassie. She watched intently as what I would think were her memories passed by.

I guess to her she was watching her life. I guess that was the cause of her laughter. I slowly make my way over to her. Before I could completely reach her she speaks, "Wilbur, do you want to know something I never told you?"

"Um...sure,"

"This whole time in my life I thought that I was gonna suffer forever," she whispers as she watched the screen, not even glancing at me. "You know I don't even remember my life before I met you. Well, I remembered bits and pieces. I...I was suffering, but I fought through it because I wanted to learn myself. I wanted to learn and explore...before it was too late. So I lived through my pain. I loved through it in silence. Not a lot of people even knew me the way you did."

"Cassie..."

"I lived my life knowing that one day I was going to die and I couldn't do anything to change that and neither could anyone else," she whispers. "I could have just gotten it over with myself, but I lived through it. I lived through it because there were people that cared. Even the ones who acted like they didn't...they did. They did care...more the ones that actually showed it."

"I was in love with you, Wilbur," she turns to look at me. "Well, I was in love with who you were. You're not that man anymore. The man I loved held me in his arms when I died and promised me he would pass on my memory. That man changed. He went back on his promise and instead he took his own life. Proceeding to put his own brother in the same situation. You died in his presence Wilbur. In his sight. In his very young innocent arms because you were selfish."

"Cassie, I did it for you," I tell her. "I did it for us."

"No," her eyes squint in anger. "You did it for yourself. Did you even think for a second I would want to kill yourself? Did you think I'd want you to do that in front of a child. A child who adored you and practically wanted to be just like you. A child who wanted to do everything you did even if that meant if you fell they went down with you. Do you think I wanted a child to die because of me? Because of you."

"You did this yourself and you need to take responsibility for your bullshit!" She yells. "You can't keep blaming me. I brought you here and I wanted you to stop. Techno warned you to stop, but you kept up. You let a little article with a couple people believing it make you take your own fucking life. If you would have taken the fucking time to listen the only thing I told you was to be careful. I told you that to not only to protect you from them. I told you that to protect you from yourself you fucking idiot!"

I look at her confused, "Were you even listening to me that night? Obviously not. I warned you about yourself. You did this. You did this to him. You did this Techno. You did this to me and most importantly you did this to yourself. Stop pinning the blame on everything and everyone else. YOU DID THIS! TAKE YOUR BAGGAGE! I had to do it my whole entire life while I was living! You could have done it to! You chose not to and now you can't take it. Just shut the fuck up and take it like the man you're supposed to be."

"Don't you think I'm living with the guilt of this!" I yell at her. "Don't you think it hurts me to watch him lie in bed helpless! I know it's my fault! I don't need a fucking reminder! Especially not from the same person who did it to me!"

"Once again you refuse to take the blame!" She argues back. "TAKE YOUR SHIT!"

I walk up to her and pin her to the wall, "I'm doing that! Now take your shit! Take what you did to me!"

"I did take that," she yells in my face. "The difference between me and you is that I didn't take my own life. I genuinely died, it wasn't under my control!"

She looks me in the eyes and takes a hard huff, "All I wanted Cassie was to tell you how much I loved you and how much you meant to me. How bad I wanted you."

"Well, now you have all the time in the world," she rolls her eyes. "Problem is I won't be listening to it."

I grab her face and make her look at me, "Cassie, you can't ignore me and you know that. You were just watching a memory of us."

I turn to look at the screen. The day she died in my arms was displayed. Well...that night in particular. I had her pinned against the wall and was kissing her. I look her back into her eyes. Her face flushed red, "You can't ignore me."

"I can and I will," she challenges. She tried to push me away, but I stayed stuck pinning her to the wall. She looks me in the eyes angrily. As fast as lightning she grabs my neck and pulls my face to hers. Her lips push onto mine and she kisses me strongly. Her hand runs slowly into my hair.

As she runs her hands up, it gets caught in one of my tangles. I groan softly and continue to let her kiss me. I push her further against the wall and try to pick her up, but she fights it, "Wilbur, stop."

"What do you mean?" I ask pulling away. "You kissed me first!"

"It isn't real," she mumbles to me.

"What?" I ask her.

"This...isn't...real..." she whispers in my ear. She pushes me away from her with a stronger force and walks away from me. She exits the room and slams the door leaving me alone.

What the fuck just happened?

{Created: August 5, 2022 at 9:51 pm}

[Published: August 5, 2022 at 10:29 pm}

Word Count: 1275 words