Smithereens (GBF×BBF) [under Editing]

Chapter 22 : REGRETS

SARAH

I know what I did and I regret it all.A sorry isn't enough to take away all those lies that I've told to her.I never expected that this day will eventually come.It hurts so much , I finally saw her in person and yet I made her cry and hurt so bad.This is not what I expected when I see her.I hate myself for being once a liar.

"Inamin mo na ba sa kaniya?" bungad sa'kin ni Shin when he came back to my room.He looked so worried , to me or to her?It doesn't matter.

"Stop crying , it's all your fault you said right?You must accept the consequences of your actions",he said with a serious soft tone.

"I'm sorry, Shin",I apologized as if it would erase all the wrong things that I've done onto him.

He sat on the sofa beside my bed and heaved a sigh."I already forgave you since I knew that you used my whole identity in rpw."he rolled his eyes."Grabe ka , hindi ko alam na ganito pala kalala ang ginawa mo and even worst ,si Elvie pala ang tinutukoy mo na nagawan mo ng kasalanan all this time",he said.

I just shrugged and leaned my head on the pillow.I don't know how it all turned out like this, I've been suffering for years , day by day I feel like my body's slowly giving up and I know sooner or later I will probably get buried six feet under the ground.And believe it or not ,I already accept the fact that I will die sooner.This is all I've got from what I did.Hindi lang naman 'yon ang ginawa kong kasalanan ,in my entire life hindi ko na mabilang ang ginawa kong mga kasalanan na recently ko lang din napagtanto at pinagsisihan.

I've never been a good person at all, hindi ko nga akalain na mapagtitiisan pa ako ni Ryushin until now.He even provide my necessities I never asked him to do so.

I know it takes time for her to forgive me pero sana man lang bago ako mawala ay makamit ko na 'yon.At kung hindi man dumating ang araw na mapapatawad niya ako , I'll still accept it with all my heart because I caused her pain.But I know her , she's the type of a person that easily forgive those people who hurt her.She never hold a grudge to somebody.I admire her a lot and I hate myself for hurting her.

Nagtulog-tulogan na lang ako para 'wag na'kong sermunan ni Shin.I saw him stood up and dialed a number on his phone.

"Nakauwi na ba siya? Ano?eh sa'n nagpunta 'yon?Gabi na ah, wait for me there papunta na'ko diyan,"he said and then he hung up.

"She's missing?"I asked.

"What do you expect?"he said at nagmamadali nang umalis.

I think he already adapted my feelings for Elvie.Looks like my illusion turning out to be true.

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ELVIE

WAAAAHHHHH!Ayoko na! Hindi ko na alam kung nasaan ako , kasalanan 'tong lahat ni Shin e!Kung hindi niya ako dinala sa ospital ay hindi ko na sana malalaman ang totoo, hindi na sana ako masasaktan at hindi sana ako sasakay ng bus na hindi ko alam kung saan ang ruta.Huhuness naman kasi si manong hindi man lang ako naisipan gisingin at tanungin kung saan ako patungo.

Bumaba ako out of nowhere ,hindi ko alam kung saan 'to basta maraming store na magkakatabi at may nag-iisang book-coffee shop.Pumasok ako ro'n para makakain at makapagpahinga na rin ,hindi pa'ko kumakain.Sana pala hindi ko na lang pinansin si Shin at umuwi na lang.Pero wala e ,na-scam ako ang sabi niya sandali lang daw pero ang layo na ng narating namin.Hindi ko na alam kung anong itsura ko pero malamang ay mukha na'kong bruha.Namumugto pa ang mga mata ko, ayaw kong makita ako nila 'insan na ganito ako.

Naki-connect na lang ako sa wi-fi ng coffee shop at sinubukan tawagan si 'insan.

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