APART (S.M)

part 7

Molly Pov

I woke up in Shawn's bed this morning, his arms wrapped around my waist, my back against his chest and our legs tangled together. our skin touching each other creating heat. I couldn't ask for anything more, i wouldn't be mad if this is how i had to wake up every morning for the rest of my life. It had been a week since our drunk night where we confessed everything to each other and honestly i am surprised i am still here. 4 more weeks until uni starts again, so i guess i'll just have to see where everything goes. everything has been perfect except for one thing, public appearances. We've been on walks, and to a cafe a few time's but we have never been out for dinner and if we ever need to go to the supermarket for food or daily chore's, he insists on going by himself. I get the whole celebrity thing, maybe he dosen't want to start up dating rumours before we make anything offical so he dosen't want to be swarmed by paparazzi when we are together, but it didn't seem like that was the issue. 

I had been wondering about this, for a few day's now and it was starting to take over my mind. i looked over at Shawn who was sleeping like a rock and untangled myself slowly so i didn't wake him. i got out of bed and chucked on one of his shirts that was laying on the floor, it reached all the way to my knee's but i liked it. I walked out into the kitchen and got myself a glass of water staring off into the distance thinking about the whole situation over and over again, i just couldn't pin point what the issue was. and it was frustrating me. I couldn't talk to anyone because i didn't know anyone, he hadn't introduced me to anyone yet. i picked up my phone and called my flat mate Lucy. 

"oh my god, molly, i haven't heard from you!" she practically screamed over the phone. 

"I know, I'm sorry. just been figuring everything out" i sighed, she aw'd over the phone knowing something must be up. 

"alright molls, no beating around the bush. what is going on?" 

I explained the whole situation to Lucy over the phone, making sure i was quiet so Shawn didn't hear just incase he had woken up. I told her about public outings, his constant excuses, how he hasn't introduced me to anyone nor told anyone about me and lastly how i wasn't allowed to be posting photos of my trip, more specifically anything that could lead people to know he is with me. 

"molls, didn't he have an issue with your age in the very beginning?" Lucy said as if she was treading on water, trying not to upset me. 

"yeah, but he said he's moved on from that and doesn't care?" i choked out, now doubting myself. i walked over to the couch and sat down with my knees up against my chest and rested my chin on the top of my knees.

"to me, it sounds like he does. either that or he is embarrassed of you as a person and dosen't want anyone to know for that reason" Lucy said, i gasped, "jesus Lucy" 

"that is my point, i don't think he is that kind of person though, so it must be the age thing, he dosen't want anybody to figure out who you are so they cant find out your age" There was a pause, a moment of silence because i didn't know what to say, Lucy spoke again "it is the only logical explanation molls"

i said my goodbye's to Lucy and thanked her, i also told her to say my hi's to the other girls. I knew she would tell them what was going on, which i appreciated because i don't think i could talk about this again. I have come to the conclusion that Lucy is right, it must be the age thing. He was fine with me in public before he knew my age, and then after he did know my age, nothing, apart from the bar thing but he hired that place out and controlled who was there. I was angry, not just angry, livid. I told him straight to his face i didn't want to deal with this shit and i would of left, why didn't he tell me, he cant have the fucking best of both worlds. who does he think he is, that he can have me behind close doors and ill just live like that, forever? as if. 

I stood up off the couch and quite literally marched to the bedroom and slammed open the door, which managed to wake Shawn up. 

"Morning babe, you okay?" he said in his really sexy morning voice, which was not helping the situation because now i was horny and mad. he stared at me and my face must of been getting redder because now i could tell he knew something was wrong.

"don't you dare" was all i managed to spit out, what does that even mean. "tell me right now, full honesty, you don't care about my age" i said in a very low voice but i seethed through my teeth trying so hard to contain my composure. he quickly got up and walked straight over to me and grabbed my waist, i hit his hands off me and told him not to touch me, which i could tell hurt him but good he deserved it. he still hadn't awnsered my question which i knew wasn't a good thing. 

"i knew it" i hissed at him, i turned around so i wasn't facing him and put my hand in my hair and started pulling at it out of frustration "oh my god" i spat out and turned around again "oh my god" i laughed, this is so fucking ridiculous that now i'm laughing out of anger. how could i let myself fall for him. 

"i may be a kid to you, but i'm not this fucking stupid. i'm leaving" i pushed him so he would move out of my way, grabbed my suitcase and started chucking everything into it. i heard the door close, which i assumed meant he left the room, typical. but then i heard it lock. i turned around to see him standing at the door with his arms crossed. 

oh fuck.