APART (S.M)

part 19

Molly Pov

currently Shawn and I were having a "disagreement", i am very angry, whereas he is trying to keep calm and collected but i can tell he is about to burst at any minute. If you are wondering what this argument is about, Shawn found a TMZ article written about me, someone who knew me saw it and gave out my age. When he first showed me obviously i didn't care for it, i didn't think it was a big deal. but Shawn? no, Shawn think's it is a very big deal. We were kind of just going back and fourth about how we were going to deal with the situation, so i was only really angry at the fact that he was so worked up about it. 

"we can never go public now" Shawn stated while looking at me dead in the eye's.

"sorry, what?" i muttered out, hurt covering my eye's the tear's literally about to spill. is he about to confirm all of my doubt's, that he has cared about the age thing this whole entire time. 

"Molly, everyone know's you are 18 now" here we go "I don't want people knowing I'm seeing an 18 year old" he yelled confidently as if he didn't care about the fact he knew he was hurting my feeling's. the tear's hadn't spilled yet, they were coming, but i wasn't going to let them. not in front of Shawn. Shawn had now officially confirmed that he cared, and honestly if he had just said this from the very beginning i wouldn't be so upset, i am upset because he lead me on and lied to my face after i gave him multiple chances to tell me. 

"okay" i smiled at him, trying to act as best as i can to show that i am not bothered in the slightest. i let out a breath i didn't know i was holding in and started to speak very calmly and smooth "don't text, don't call" i continued to smile at him "i quit" i then walked around Shawn's room picking up all of my stuff off of the floor whilst he kept asking me "what?" over and over again but i continued to ignore him, i wanted the last word, i wanted to effect him and leave him with question's. But i don't want to hurt him, i wasn't going to put either of us through what we did to each other a few months ago again. 

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"what do you mean i can't quit?" i spat at Andrew, anger rising through my body. 

"i'm sorry molly, but you're contract states that you have to follow through with the whole 8 months" Andrew said awkwardly.

8 months. that mean's i have to deal with this shit for another 4 month's. can i do that? well honestly i don't really have a choice. i shrugged my shoulder's down from their tense position and put my head into my hand's. 

"okay that's fine" i muttered to Andrew who had put his hand on my back and was rubbing it to try and make me feel better. He wasn't angry at me, he understood but he said he would try make this trip not so bad. 

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Shawn was currently on stage, he was beautiful. I cannot believe that 24 hour's ago i had broken up with the literal man of my dream's. the man of every girl's dreams. we hadn't talked to each other, barley even looked at each other. When i knew he wasn't looking i would glance over at him, iv noticed he is opening up to hailee a little more, if he is doing this soley to make me jealous then it is working. but that dosent mean i am going to do it back. I was interrupted from my thoughts when i felt a hand placed onto my shoulder, i turned around and honestly could not believe who was standing in front of me. 

"hey, do you think you could show me where the rest room is" he states, somewhat embarrassed that he has to ask me.

"uh- yeah of course" i smiled shyly but couldn't help the blush rising on my cheek's

i started to walk and he followed behind me, closely may i add. then he started to talk. 

"I'm sorry that i took you away from the show" he muttered, but then confidently smiled at me, i turned to look behind me so now i was walking backwards

"it's fine, i was only watching because i had finished my work" i smiled back to him, then turned back around, i then felt a hand grab my wrist and it sent a rush of heat through my body. The boy turned me around and we both stopped walking. 

"I'm Austin, Austin Butler" he laughed at himself, he must know he sound's silly with the way he sounded so formally introducing himself. i laughed with him. 

"i'm not going to pretend i don't know who you are, but i'm Molly" he cocked his eyebrow up then smirked

"the molly parker, who work's for Shawn Mendes?" i smirked back at him. i wonder if he know's how old i am?. i nodded in response. 

"i would love to take you for a drink, does tonight work for you?" he ask's shyly. a drink? he must not know. 

"lucky we are in Europe so it's legal" i giggled and he laughed back, he must know and he dosent care? god that is so refreshing. 

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Shawn had just finished his show, Austin was meeting me outside the arena and we were going to go straight from here. the whole team was sitting in a briefing room to talk about next steps. 

"so who want's to go out for a drink to celebrate a good show?" Andrew laughs. everyone shout's yes and agree's to go. 

"Molly, you coming?" Andrew ask's in front of everyone. god this is embarrassing. 

"i-i cant sorry, i'm going out" i muttered, but loud enough for everyone to hear. that's when i noticed Shawn's head snapped up and dead eyes me. 

"going where?" he asked, a little to aggressively which made hailee cock her eyebrow in confusion. honestly, i feel like being petty tonight so let's make him jealous.

"uhm, Austin Butler asked me for a drink" i rubbed my hand's together to give the effect that i was anxious because i know Shawn know's that's what i do. Also doing it so people don't think i'm only saying this to make him jealous. I looked back up to Shawn after i stated my plan's and Shawn's eyes almost went black, and his face went red and he clenched his jaw really hard. i had got to him, even though agreeing to go to this drink with Austin was not to make Shawn jealous, i'm kind of glad it did. 

"Ha" Shawn sarcastically laughed "does he know you're 18?" he asked egotistically. god why is he being such a dick, then he smirked at me, thinking that he had gotten a reaction out of me. 

"yeah, i told him" then i looked him dead in the eyes "he dosent care" which caused Shawn's face to drop.