APART (S.M)

part 28

molly pov 

the audience was clapping and screaming of joy. the movie was a success, i look up from my seat to see Shawn standing in front of the screen. We catch each others eyes and he blows me a kiss so i blow him one back. i feel somewhat kind of bad for the other cast members because it is so completely obvious that majority of the crowd is here to see Shawn, but who wouldn't be to be honest. 

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"hey theres an after party at a bar down the road, are you keen to go?" he whispered into my ear so nobody around us could hear, just incase a fan overheard and they all turned up. i looked over to him and smiled shortly while nodding. i didn't really want to go, i am still new to this whole public appearance thing and i don't want to push myself right into the deep end at the very beginning, not with my anxiety. 

As we were sitting in the car on the way to the bar, i felt my anxiety kicking in and also i started to get really tired, so i digged into my purse for my pills. i had two different types of pills i have to take in these situations so i grabbed one of each, grabbed a bottle of water from the side of the car door and quickly downed them. 

"what are those?" Shawn asked, he seemed a little annoyed as if what i was doing was wrong. 

"Lexapro and B12" i shortly said to him, while screwing the lid back on the water bottle and then fluffing my hair back into it's right place. 

"well i can guess what the lexapro is for but whats B12?" He asked while fixing the cuffs on his jacket, he still seemed a little annoyed at me but i'm not sure what for. I know he is very into his natural healing, is he annoyed that i rely on pills and not meditation?

"i don't really want to talk about it" i smiled curtly at him to let him know that i wasn't getting annoyed at him even though i was. he did not like my awnser to his question and his facial features dropped and he shifted awkwardly in his seat. 

"do you not trust me or something?" he rolled his eyes at me

"i do trust you, this just isn't the right time for this conversation Shawn" i whispered so the driver didn't know that we were having a tiff. the car came to a halt and we had arrived at the bar. 

"whatever" Shawn quietly said back then opened the door and got out, and by my surprise he walked straight into the bar leaving me alone in the car. 

What just happened? one minute everything was fine, then the next he is pissed. I am way out of my comfort zone being here for him, i have been so supportive of him and this is how he reacts. I took some doctor prescribed pills so i wasn't awkward and a buzzkill at his after party so i wouldn't embarrass him and this is how i am treated? 

"are you alright ma'am" the driver interrupted my thoughts. shoot i must of zoned out in the car. 

"sorry, how long have i been sitting in here?" i asked awkwardly

"like 20 minutes ma'am" he said while looking at me through his rear view mirror

"should probably go in then" i said while awkwardly laughing, then getting out of the car and making my way into the bar. 

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when i walked in i couldn't see Shawn anywhere so i just decided to head to the bar and when he was ready he could come to me. As i was approaching the bar I finally see Shawn and he is talking to someone, as i get closer i realise it is Camila. they are laughing and she keeps hitting his shoulder playfully, he just tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear. what is she even doing here? she has nothing to do with the movie so the only way she could of got in here was through someone who was in the movie and the only person that could've been would be Shawn. did he invite her before or after the argument in the car? honestly i don't know which one is worse. 

I decided to act like i hadn't seen them and just get a drink anyway. I walked up to the bar and asked the bartender for a purple rain, which was blue curacao, malibu, lemon, soda and raspberry. Honestly these drinks are dangerous, they taste just like soda. 

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I have had 9 purple rains... embarrassing i know but i kept getting sadder that Shawn still hadn't realised i was here and so i just kept drinking. also mixing this much alcohol with my meds was not doing me any favours either. I had decided i have had enough of the way i was being treated, and i don't know if this is the liquid courage speaking but i am going to go up to them right now. 

i stumbled over to where they were and grabbed ahold of Shawn's shoulder to honestly gain balance, Camila gave me this dreadful look. 

"sorry, you cant just grab random people" she snarked at me 

"don't worry sweetie, i know him" i smiled then looked down at Shawn who had a worried look all over his face

"who is she Shawn?" she glared from me to him

"Camila, this is my friend Molly" he coughed out awkwardly 

"ohhh friend, yes i am his best friend" i wobbled a little bit

"are you drunk?" he looked at me obviously very angry. 

"yes i am" i giggled then looked back at Camila "very nice to meet you, but i have to get going, i have a flight to catch early in the morning" 

as i went to turn around, Shawn grabbed my wrist

"what flight? to where?" he had the most adorable puzzled look. i giggled. 

"to new zealand" then i smiled greatly and walked straight out of that bar and got a cab home. 

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i was awoken by a slam of the hotel door. 

"to new Zealand, are you serious?" he yelled across the room while kicking off his shoes. i rubbed my eyes to wake me up and then stretched across the bed. 

"what?" i questioned. what was he talking about? 

"you said at the bar, you had a flight in the morning back to new Zealand" he growled at me. i grabbed my phone and checked my emails, and there they were flights to new Zealand with no return ticket. 

"oh yeah" i laughed "looks like i did book them, i thought that was a dream" i fell back into bed and giggled to myself

"well there is no way you are getting on that plane molly, why have you done this anyway?" he walked over to the other side of the bed and sat down

"why did you spend the whole night talking to Camila while i sat at the other end of the bar alone"

"because i was angry at you, but what i did was wrong and i am sorry"

"why did it have to be her, you know how i feel about her" i whispered while a tear started running down my cheek

"because i knew it would get to you" he said shamefully 

"you said we were just friends" i was clearly sobbing now, Shawn crawled across the bed and wrapped his arms around me. 

"i fucked up, i am sorry, please i love you. I was just mad" he whispered into my ear softly

"ok" was all i managed to say.