INFINITY...? 1-the tragedy

14. AN INVISIBLE TEAR

Wrapped up in all happiness, I finally headed towards his town along with my family. I haven't been this sure about anything in my life. 

Everyone has a hidden secret. EVERYONE. Do you know the hidden secret of clouds and the sky? 

The sky looks so perfect and flawless and bright, messy and busy with clouds in it, but the fact is that those passing clouds are the real forever sky. When everything happens to be temporary, skies being their colors to their regular visitors; the stars and lovebirds, it's clouds which keep them company. Through thicks and thins, clouds happen to hug the sky and cover its face when it cries in pain. Embracing its colors, loneliness, and ego, everything, CLOUDS ARE THE ONES WHO DITCH EVERYBODY TO STAY BY SIDE OF SKY, SHOWING US ALL HOW HOLDING ON TO EACH OTHER LOOKS LIKE.

I've decided I'll tell him I want to be a cloud to his sky, flaws to his perfection, and a mess to his sass. I've decided to tell him that I don't see him 'just like a friend; there's a lot more going on here.

I think I'm falling for you by the speed of light! ALEXA PLAY 'YAHAAN WAHAAN' from yrkkh...

We finally entered the district by dancing and singing and hoping for the best of what's possible. KATHIYAVAD, they say, everywhere I could see men having a paghadi on their head and wearing shades of white, while women dressed rather traditionally but kept it subtle. 

I've always had a weird obsession, or I'd say a kind of attachment, with this tribe of Gujarat. Though I belong to a different community, something in me was like it was supposed to be related to them, and not to mention, I've always craved to come here, and today's finally the day. 

khetlabapa's famous tea, yummy kumbhaniya, and those cactus plants at random places all left me in awe. I'm already head over heels for this place. 

EVERYTHING I'M GETTING IS ENOUGH, BUT STILL, I WANT MORE OF IT, EVERYTHING I'M HAVING; I WANNA PRESERVE IT, MAKE IT LAST A LIFETIME, THE MOMENT I'M SPENDING, TURNING INTO AN ETERNITY. THIS IS HOW WE DEFINE LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT, DON'T WE? oh, I've fallen for this place.

Like I fell from him, the tenth floor to basement parking, GAME FINISH!

UGHH!!! The sun, though, it's too much hot for winter here. Bro, mind your fkg business, please.

After an hour more of that painful wait, we finally reached there. 

At sid's place!!! Amongst a hundred people gathered there, I was looking for those two eyes which give me peace. By a little far, I saw him coming closer to us. Walking with her was a girl probably the same age as ours, she was dressed in all glam, and I knew who she'd be, Freya! 

Freya was sid's favorite cousin and his human diary, his love. Bonding like sid and Freyas was rare, but mine and my sisters were the most irregular, though; also, the love between Siddharth and my sister and me was second to none, but to sid, Freya was necessary as she was also related by blood.

Whenever I see this dude with his loved ones, I realize how broken he is deep within, but the fact that he still carries himself with such h cheerful attitude makes me fall for him.

At this point, I have come far ahead of 'love,' I've already loved him enough, and now I've started idolizing him. Every passing minute I'm trying to drink him like a solution and to transform into something so much like him. bit by bit, I'm turning into him, and that is why it's more critical for me to know about his involvement now because walking on this path alone will haunt me forever. This is a lot of dreamy things for me, and I want it to go right.

i pulled myself out of this thoughts and finally waved at him, i felt something changed in his smile, a little less tilted than before. 

ohh this was not the usual pain he hides, there's a lot more, something triggered him, maybe his grandmom. 

after all the introduction and stuff, we were guided to the first floor of sid's house where we all took rest until evening. just an hour before sun was about to set we all attended the rituals his family performed, i and my sister's recorded that on the ipad while sid was helping his parents and entertaining the guest. sitting right next to his parents were mine and the youngest of my girls were with freya in the next room. i can feel a little squall happening within him. he's about to cry out loud and is holding them in. although i can feel it, i cannot really do anything about it as i am particularly nobody to him, the fake smile on his face and dripping invisible tears are breaking my heart. he suddenly glared at me, in his look there was a question, something he was thinking about and that he wanted to shut his brain. all i could do here is pray to god to solve his problems as soon as possible and to give this boy an eternity of happiness. he broke the eye contact and drew his attention back to the puja, he was thinking about something else. 

i also decided to do something more realistic than reading people's eyes so i went to the next room and sat with my sister's and freya. trust me, she is all cute and hot and organized but she's bringing a lot more chaos, mark my words. that's what my dhvani instinct say. anyways whatever, she has nothing to do with me. i'm just here for a couple days and that's it.

villages are usually calm and peaceful but not this particular place. it was a lot more like my own village, negativity and restlessness in the air. once everything got over we kids headed towards the first floor. we sat on the fence and enjoyed a night full of stars. we never get to hug the night like this in cities, negated from street lights we get to see the most of stars and only light being glorified is of moon.

moonlight reflecting on his skin coloured face with a golden undertone looked more like a diya(lamp) that we light up on diwali. just like those diya's he's also an epitome of purity and power to me. in the warmth of his attendance and in this illuminating breathtaking vision, i felt so content. i leaned towards the wall and rested my back while he was sitting a step below me allowing me a proper sight to adore and breathe his beauty. 

I HAVE NEVER FOUND ANYTHING MORE SEDUCTIVE THAN THE NIGHT SKY BUT I THINK HE'S MAKING ME CHANGE MY MIND.

he has started lighting up some weird nasty fantasies in my mind which i'm fighting hard to resist. I'VE NEVER FELT SO MUCH OF A WOMAN BEFORE.