not good enough

chapter 2

I'm sat on the bleachers at school by myself, watching Joshua play football. "Hey" I jump as I hear him behind me. "Oh, hi derek" I smile.

I scan his body. "You look hot in your football.. outfit" I say. "Football outfit" he chuckles. I shrug.

"So, who are you stalking?" He sits next to me. "I'm not stalking anyone" I roll my eyes. He glares at me. I grin. "Joshua" I signal towards him. He looks.

"No, he's no good for you" he says. I chuckle. "Of course you'd think that" I say. He grins.

"Hi babe" a girl walks over, kissing him. I raise my brow as she basically snogs his face off.

He pulls away. "Hi" he says. She sits next to him. "You kissed her" I whisper. He nods. I smile.

I freeze as I see Joshua walking towards us. "Derek!" He smiles. I gasp. "Derek Oh my god he's walking over" I panic. "Shh.. he'll hear you!" he chuckles.

"Oh my god Oh my god Oh my god!" I hit him. "Ow" he says. "Don't say anything about me... I gotta go" I get up. He chuckles. I run away, under the bleachers instead to hide.

Once I know he's left I walk back over to derek. "What happened? What did he say? Do you think he saw me?" I ask. He rolls his eyes.

"He was just talking about the game.. calm down" he says. "Did he see me?!" I ask. "I don't know.. I dont think so" he says.

"I'm going to class.. I'll see you later" I say. "Bye" he smiles. I leave and go to science class.

"Derek, you're not in this class" I giggle as he sits next to me. "Listen, he doesn't deserve you.. okay? He's an asshole.. and you're perfect" he says. I roll my eyes.

"I know you like me derek, but you're my friend.. I'm sorry but it's nothing more than that" I whisper. "He is an asshole" he says.

"You're an asshole.. you're just mad cause I don't like you back" I say. He frowns. "I'm just trying to warn you" he says. "You're trying to keep me single because you're jealous" I say.

"Whatever meredith" he gets up. I roll my eyes. "I'll see you when he breaks your heart" he says, walking away. I scoff. I should not have kissed him.

After class I walk out, going to my locker. I gasp as I bump into someone. "Oh my god I'm so-" I kneel down, picking up his... football?

I look up. My breath catches in my throat. JOSHUA. I stand up slowly. "Sorry" I pass him the ball. "That's okay" he smiles.

I look into his eyes. They're beautiful. Joshua is a blonde boy with blue eyes. He's not even my usual type but he's just too perfect.

"Are you okay?" He asks. "W-what? Yeah?" I stutter. "I-I think you're bleeding" he whispers. I furrow my brows. His eyes trail down.

I look down. I gasp, going a deep shade of red as I see my white pants stained red. My period. Right now. I run into the bathroom next to me.

I go into the stall and burst into tears. That's just ruined any chance of him finding me attractive at all. "Hey?" I hear a guys voice. Joshua?

I sob quietly. "You need help? I can go to lost property to get you some trousers" he asks. I open the door slowly to the stall I'm in.

I peek my head out. He looks at me. "What size are you?" He asks. "Eight" I whisper. "I'll be back" he says. I look into his eyes. He smiles small before leaving.

The bathroom door opens. "I saw you run in here.. what happened? Did he say something to you? I'll kill him, Why are you crying? Tell me" Derek walks over. I shake my head.

"I started my period and its on my trousers.. he saw" I whisper. "Oh" he sighs.

"I'm so sorry about what I said earlier.. I know you're looking out for me in your own annoying way" I say. "I'm sorry too.. its none of my business" he says.

"I do like you derek.. you're an amazing friend" I whisper. He hugs me. I sniffle, hugging him back tight.

We pull away slowly. He goes to the pads machine, grabbing a few for me. He grabs some wipes out of his bag and passes it all to me.

"Thankyou" I say. Joshua walks back in. I look at derek. "I'll go" he whispers. I smile small at him thankfully. He leaves. Joshua helps me out.