not good enough

chapter 12

Its about 12 am. Me and my mom heard screaming at merediths house. Her and Ellis must be in a bad argument again.

I'm watching outside my bedroom window to see if she comes out. As soon as I see her leave her house I run downstairs.

"Mer!" I yell as I see her about to get in cristinas car. She runs over to me and hugs me. "Where you going?" I squeeze her. "I called cristina to pick me up.. I'm going to hers to get away from my mom for the night" she says.

"You could've called me, baby" I sigh. "I didn't want to burden you" she says. "Never" I say.

"Take me with you" I say. "Really?" She giggles. I grin. "Cris! Can derek come?" She asks. "Yeah, get in" she says. We get in her car and she drives us to her house. Her boyfriend is there too, anyway.

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We're sat in cristinas room. We're sat on the bean bag in the corner of the room. Meredith is on my lap. Cristina and Owen are sat in her bed.

Me and meredith have been making out for the past five minutes. I gently grab her thighs, pulling her further on my lap to show her what she's doing to me. She pulls away from my lips, looking down. She smiles before kissing me again.

I pull away from her slowly after a few more minutes of kissing. "I love you, you know?" I whisper so only she can hear. "I love you too" she whispers.

"Why was your mom yelling?" I ask. "She's drunk" she rolls her eyes. "I'm sorry mer" I sigh. She shrugs.

"You can come over to mine whenever, baby.. my mom said you're always welcome" I say. "Thanks" she smiles.

"I get a bit scared staying at yours" she whispers. "Why?" I frown. "You make me so.." she trails off. She sighs. "I'll have sex with you.. I know I would" she chuckles. "I'd never ever sleep with you if I knew you weren't actually ready" I say.

"Really?" She asks. "Meredith.. of course" I sigh. "Maybe we could talk about it a bit first" she says. "Yeah, whatever you want baby" I kiss her cheek as she cuddles into me.

Two hours later:
I've been scrolling through my phone for a while. "Look" cristina says, pointing at meredith whos still on my lap. I look down at her. I smile as I realise she's asleep.

"I should get her home" I put my phone in my pocket before picking her up very gently, with her legs wrapped around my waist and her arms draped around my neck. She snuggles her face into my neck.

"Bye" I say. "Byeee" cristina says. I take her downstairs and get us both in a cab. We go home.

I carry her into my house and take her up to my room. "Derek?" She opens her eyes slowly. "Its okay baby, you're just in my room... go back to sleep" I gently lay her on my bed. She snuggles into my pillow.

I pull the covers over her and kiss her head softly. "I love you" she mumbles tiredly. "I love you too" I smile.

"Do you mind me sleeping with you? Or should I sleep on the couch?" I ask. "Come here" she holds her arms open. "I need to put on some pyjamas" I chuckle. She shakes her head.

"Just sleep in your boxers" she looks at me. "Okay" I pull off my clothes. I climb into bed next to her. She hugs me.