About an hour ago, the screaming over at merediths house started again. Her mother was screaming at her and she was screaming back.
I'm just sat in my room, waiting for her. I told her to come over. There's a knock on my bedroom door.
I go and open it. "Hi baby" I say softly. She immediately starts crying and holds her arms out to me. I hug her tight. "Its okay" I whisper, stroking her back gently.
"I hate her" she sobs. "Come in mer" I whisper. Its like 12am and my whole family is asleep. I close my bedroom door. She climbs into my bed and gets comfortable under the covers.
I climb in next to her. She hugs me tightly. "She told me she hates me and wishes I'd just move out" she says tearfully. "I'm sorry" I whisper.
She looks into my eyes. "I love you so much meredith, you're always welcome here" I stroke her cheek with my thumb. "You promise?" She whispers. "I promise baby, always" I kiss her softly.
She deepens the kiss. I run my fingers through her hair as I kiss her passionately. She moans against my lips.
I pull away slowly. "Will you touch me?" She whispers. "No mer, not whilst your upset" I push her hair back gently. "Please" she says tearfully.
"Baby" I sigh. "I want you" she whispers. "No, mer I'm sorry.. I can't whilst you're like this" I say.
She cries harder. "You don't want me" she sits up. I pull her back down and into my arms. "I want you so much" I whisper in her ear, hugging her tightly.
"You're amazing, meredith.. you're gorgeous and kind and caring and perfect, I love you so much" I say. "Really?" She asks. "Yes" I say.
"Listen to me" I whisper. She looks into my eyes. "Don't ever believe anything your mom says about you, you are incredible" I say.
"I don't think I am" she says tearfully. "Baby, you're perfect.. you're my perfect girl, I couldn't imagine being with anyone other than you.. I love you so much" I say.
"I don't understand why she hates me so much" she starts crying again. "I don't understand how anyone could ever hate you" I hug her.
"I'm so scared" she whispers. "Of what?" I ask. "That were gonna sleep together and you're just gonna push me away after" she says. "Meredith, I told you.. that's not why I'm with you, we could never have sex and I'd still want to be with you" I say.
"But why!?" She asks. "Because I love you.. I've always loved you, you're beautiful, and interesting and smart and kind and thoughtful.. and even though your mom is an absolute bitch to you, you never give up on her.. I love everything about you" I say.
"I'm not beautiful, I'm too skinny, I'm flat and I have acne" she says. "You're gorgeous!" I say. She rolls her eyes.
"Why would I want to fuck an ugly girl?" I say. She grins slightly. "Because.. you're a bit nerdy" she says quietly. "Meredith grey, how dare you!?" I tickle her belly. She giggles.
"I'm hot" I say. "Yeah, you are" she smiles. "You're hot.. we're a hot couple" I say. "Do you really find me attractive?" She asks. "Yes!" I say.
"My mom said I'm a horrible person, that she thought I'd never find a boyfriend because of how much of a bitch I am" she says. "That's not true at all" I say. She shrugs.
She sits up slowly. I sit up too. "She just hates me so much, derek.. and I don't know why" she starts crying again. "Some people aren't supposed to have kids, mer.. its not your fault.. she's a terrible mom" I say.
"She's nice one second, then the next she hates me again and she's screaming at me and telling me to leave" she says. "I've noticed it's got worse recently.. do you know why?" I ask quietly. She shakes her head.
"I just don't know what to do.. I hate her, but then I think about the good times with her and I don't want to hurt her by not forgiving her again" she says. "But she hurts you all the time" I say. "I know" she whispers.
"Baby" I whisper. She looks into my eyes. "I love you so much" I say. Tears run down her cheeks. "Do you?" She whispers. I nod. "I love you too" her voice cracks.
"I'm so sorry if I ever make you feel like I don't, because I love you more than anybody else in my life right now.. im just not the best at showing it" she whispers.
It's understandable. Her mother never showed her love. She never got hugs or kisses from her... of course meredith is a bit closed off, it's normal to her.
"You're doing so good, mer" I say. "Yeah?" She smiles slightly. I nod. "You're a great girlfriend" I say. She smiles wider, cuddling into me. I squeeze her gently. She falls asleep eventually.
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Fanfictionmeredith is 16 years old. she's not too popular in her school but people know who she is. she has a few close friends but gets along with anyone who talks to her. she is single but likes to fool around with boys from time to time. she has her eye on...
