not good enough

chapter 20

I'm sat next to meredith in my bed. We're watching a movie. She hasn't really let me touch her properly in about two weeks. It's okay, but I miss her.

I wrap my arm around her. She smiles, hugging my waist. "I love you" she rests her head on my shoulder. "I love you" I whisper.

I pull away from her slightly and start kissing her neck. Her breathing gets heavier as I slowly pull down her panties. She's in one of my shirts.

I pull off the shirt and toss it aside. "Are you not into this?" I stop as soon as I see that she's looking at the TV. "What?" She asks.

"You're literally watching TV" I chuckle, but I don't actually find it funny at all. "I'm trying to turn it off" she whispers, showing me the remote. She turns it off and puts the remote aside.

I go back to kissing her chest softly, whilst running my hand up, between her thighs. "What do you want?" I smile. "Can we just have sex?" She asks.

"No" I say. "No?" She asks. I shake my head. "Do you want me to..." her eyes trail down my body. I shake my head.

"You don't want to do anything?" She asks. I shake my head. "Derek" she whines. "Let me go down on you" I smirk. "Oh" she blushes.

"Please" I kiss her thigh, positioning my face between her legs. "Okay" she smiles. "You want it, yeah?" I ask. She nods enthusiastically. I smile.

I grab her thighs gently and drape them over my shoulders. She makes herself comfortable as I move my face closer.

I lick up and down her foulds slowly. She gasps quietly as I dive straight into it and start basically making out with her vagina, flicking her clit back and forth.

She let's out a small moan and grabs my hair gently in her fist. her phone starts ringing. She switches it off and tosses it to the other end of the bed. I just ignore it and continue.

"Shh baby, my mom will kill me if she hears you" I whisper as her moans get louder. "I like it" she gently pushes my face closer. "I know" I smile. I go back to eating her out.

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I kiss her lips to suppress her moans as she cums. I thrust in and out of her faster until I finish too.

I pull out of her and lay next to her. She smiles at me. "You did amazing" I kiss her. She smiles wider, biting her lip.

"I love you" she says. "I love you" I smile. "Look at you not crying" I grin. She giggles.

"Can we go downstairs and see your mom? I miss her" she says. "Sure" I smile. I watch her as she stands up and goes to my drawers. She grabs a pair of my pyjamas and puts them on. I smile wider.

She hands me a pair too and I put them on. We go downstairs, hand in hand.

"Meredith wanted to see her bestie" I chuckle, sitting on the chair alone as she goes and sits next to my mom. My mom smiles at her. They start talking.

"Mer, I'm gonna go and speak to my dad for a bit in the kitchen" I lean down and kiss her softly. "Okay" she says. I smile at her before walking away.

Merediths pov:
A little while later, I go to find derek in the kitchen. "Hi" I hug him from behind. He's sat at the kitchen island, opposite Christopher.

I kiss the back of his shoulder softly. "You okay?" He asks. He gently pulls me infront of him instead and between his legs, wrapping his arms around me. I hug his waist.

"Can I sleep over tonight?" I ask. He looks at his dad. He nods. "Yeah" he smiles. "Yay!" I kiss his cheek.

"We can have sex again tonight" I whisper in his ear, gently grabbing his shirt in my fists. He smiles at me.

"I forgot to ask derek, how's football going?" His dad asks. "Its good.. he looks so handsome when he's playing" I wrap my arms around his neck. He chuckles.

"Thank you, you look so gorgeous watching" he kisses my cheek. I grin. "Its going good" he says.

"How's school going for you?" He asks. "Good!" I smile. "That's great.. its fun having a boyfriend or girlfriend in school, isn't it?" He smiles. I nod enthusiastically.

"I love it" I hug Derek's waist tighter. "Do you want anything to eat?" He asks. "No thanks" I say. I hold Derek's hand and follow him upstairs.

He climbs onto his bed and sits down. I turn off the light and climb between his legs, cuddling into him. He wraps his arms around me.

We cuddle for ages, just watching TV in silence. Eventually, we just end up making out.

He pulls away from me. "You okay?" I ask quietly, putting my hand on his chest. He nods. "Yeah, this is nice" he smiles. I smile back at him. He kisses me again. I'm starting to feel a lot more comfortable and confident around him now.