I'm sat on the couch in the living room next to my mom. I'm texting meredith.
My wife: hi
Me: hi prettyyyy
My wife: I just wanted to tell u I love you
Me: I love you baby, so much
My wife: what you doing?
Me: just watching tv
Me: what you doing?
My wife: kinda crying..
Me: what? Are you okay? What's wrong?
My wife: my mom left a comment about my weight
Me: I'm sorry baby, you're so gorgeous and perfect. Ignore her.
My wife: can I come over? I want to kiss you...
Me: yes please!
Ten minutes later there's a knock at the door. I go and answer it. She looks like she's been crying a lot. She's in a pair of joggers and one of my hoodies I gave her. Her hair is in a high bun, with her curtain bangs out.
"Hi" she hugs me. "Hi gorgeous" I rub her back. "I really needed to see you" she says. "Its good to see you" I hug her tighter.
"Can I have my kiss?" I whisper. "Upstairs" she smiles. I hold her hand and lead her upstairs to my room.
Merediths pov:
We enter his room and he closes the door behind us. I smile at him as he steps towards me.
I lift my hands up and rest them on his waist as he gently grabs my face. "Can I?" He whispers. I nod slowly. He kisses me softly.
He's so gentle with me.. he's never ever forceful at all, and asks my permission for literally everything, even if it's just holding my hand.
He really respects me, and I love him so much for it, because no guy I've been with before has.
I think he does love me. I mean, he waited ages for me.. and he wants me so bad. He loves giving me cuddles, and kisses. He loves showing me off to his friends and giving me his clothes to wear. He does love me, right?
He pulls away from my lips slowly. "I love you" he says. "You might be the only one" i chuckle. "What are you talking about? Your dad loves you.. and so does your mom, even if she won't admit it" he says.
I roll my eyes. He doesn't understand. It's not his fault, but he doesn't. He has a perfect family with perfect parents who love him so much and don't drink and yell at him and hate him.
"I don't need my parents anyway.. you're all I need, derek" I look into his eyes. "Yeah?" He smiles. I nod.
"Sometimes when I'm with you, you make me feel like I'm worth something.. you literally make my life worth living" I say tearfully.
"Meredith, you're worth everything.. you are my everything" he puts his hands on my waist before hugging me tight.
"I don't know why you like me.. everyone else hates me" I sob quietly. "Nobody hates you" he says. "My mom hates me! She tells me all the time" I cry harder.
"I want to kill your mom sometimes" he whispers. "Me too" I giggle between my cries.
"Can I give you kisses?" He asks. I nod. "Get in bed, we can cuddle for a while" he says. I climb into bed. He turns off the light before joining me. I immediately cuddle into him.
He kisses my lips. I close my eyes. He keeps giving me soft kisses on my lips, cheek and neck, whilst cuddling me and telling me how beautiful I am and how much he loves me. I'm crying a lot. He makes me so happy...
He pulls away from my lips slowly. "I love your lips.. and your face and your neck and your chest and your belly and your cute butt and your back and your thighs and your toes and your fingers and your hands and-" he lists ever part of my body.
I giggle softly. He smiles. "What part of me is your least favourite?" I ask. "I don't have a least favourite part.. I love every inch of your body" he says.
"What's your favourite part?" I ask. "Your lips.. you have the most amazing smile, and I love kissing them.. not to mention your cute giggle that comes out of them and your amazing voice" he says. I smile.
"My mom hates my laugh.. and everytime I talk, she just ignores me" I say. "You have an amazing laugh.. and I love it when you talk to me" he says. "Promise?" I say. "I promise" he whispers. I kiss him.
"Derek" I say. "Yes gorgeous?" He asks. "What are you going to do when we have sex?" I whisper. "What do you mean?" He asks. "What if you don't make me... you know?" I say quietly.
"I will" he says. "But what if.." I trail off. "I'll make you finish, meredith.. I'd give you as much pleasure as I possibly can, trust me" he says.
"Do you want to do it from behind?" I ask. "No, I want to see your beautiful face so I can kiss you" he says. I smile. I was actually really worried about that. I wanted to do it in missionary too. It seems more romantic for a first time.
"I want to do it" I whisper. "Well, we-" he says. "No, now.. I want you now" I kiss him. "Are you sure?" He asks. "I'm so sure" I whisper. He climbs ontop of me.
YOU ARE READING
not good enough
Fanfictionmeredith is 16 years old. she's not too popular in her school but people know who she is. she has a few close friends but gets along with anyone who talks to her. she is single but likes to fool around with boys from time to time. she has her eye on...
